Ruby - Astari Boedikoentjara
No signs of warning.
Everything was fine.
A face smiling,
sincere and kind.
A picture-perfect romance,
I can never really get rid of you,
No matter what I do
or how I should often lie
while trying hard not to cry
The bitch-fest seems to drag on and on
No wonder the soap operas’ ratings are down
Each finds ways to stab their opponents
perhaps until all is completely gone
What’s with the bad blood?
I need to be brave
to show you these feelings I have
For too long I’ve been imprisoned
by my own creation of silence
I’ve been too scared
They all say the same cliché:
“It’s better to have loved than none at all.”
Our story had been short and not worth it,
yet I’ve been cursed with this ability;
this giant elephant memory.
The grip of reality
slowly taking over me
away from my real hobbies
all in the name of making more money
I know I’m busy
You use your bitter past
to ensure their hopes won’t last.
that’s what you always say
making sure your message sticks.
Say what you like,
do what you will
Let your words be the strike,
if you're in for the kill
Say what you mean,
You say it's just a talk,
like normal people making a conversation
It's part of being social,
despite the annual scrutiny and judgment
an inner push to an automatic mode
a buzzing chainsaw in my ears
My vision wasn’t crystal-clear
It was the same old alien
I’d like to call your bluff
after you’ve implied I wasn’t good enough
even after all I’ve done
at some point, inevitable
There’s the child and the adult
a heated argument involved
You think the child’s always being told
but not all adults are the grown-ups
It’s funny when you see