Ruby - Astari Boedikoentjara
I first knew you
before there was him
Then there were two,
until the truth got really grim
I had to take two flights
I must do what’s right
kicking you out
out of my sight
You were never mine
I was stupid and blind
but now I’m fine
Break his spells
You might as well
Never say his name
End his game
We know what he is
Have I told you that comfort zone is temporary?
Go ahead, call me crazy.
Have I told you that a safe space is an illusion?
It’s our own creation.
It’s just like us.
It doesn’t really last.
I’m just a number,
not a person,
at least according to them.
If I die as the only one,
then it doesn’t matter.
I’m just a dot in their statistics.
Oh, I never thought
that pretty petite puppet
could stab me in the back
an innocent audience
fascinated by her one little show
Advice?
More of them?
Truth or lies?
Should I give a damn?
I understand
The world outside?
It can be chaotic.
God Does What God Likes.
What we break, God May Fix
or Leave Shattered, just like that.
This stage should not be skipped,
yet many often get past it,
in the name of love from another
in hopes, the one will stick around longer,
if not forever.
She longs for peace
like the soft wind’s breeze
to help her sleep
cast off the creeps
She longs for dreams
Those sweet words
are sacred
easier said
than done
even when you’ve promised
that you’ll always be around
I’ve been blinded by biased simplicity,
seeing things in black and white, so literally.
The shame’s still within me,
‘though I know I’m not the one and only.
Have your minds also been corrupted,