Ruby - Astari Boedikoentjara
I'm denying my natural rights to fall apart
This world always demands a fight
with all my might
I don't always know
the next levels I should go
Hey.
It’s the new me.
This time, no mercy.
I’ve had enough, you see?
Brand new armour
Are you afraid of my face?
I am human too,
just like you.
This face represents me.
This is part of my identity.
How to recognise me,
Are we in the era of escalating vanity?
So many strike a pose
It’s where anything goes
Once or twice ain’t enough
There’s always that extra dose
It’s the environment
I’d rather not be in
full of such impossible demands
and scolding remarks
for my lack of perfection
I wish I had my rose-coloured glasses,
so I could see the colours of your optimism.
You say we can be stronger than our painful wounds.
Maybe it’s true.
Maybe I could play the same role again too.
I’m just a number,
not a person,
at least according to them.
If I die as the only one,
then it doesn’t matter.
I’m just a dot in their statistics.
Oh, yes
I mind my own business
I do hang out with the boys
It's all my personal choice
but I'm no prissy princess
You can stop playing victim,
by acting as if I’m the mean one.
I’ve got valid reasons to be angry
and stay that way
as long as you still disrespect me.
Every day is basically the same.
We’ve become hamsters in our own spinning wheels.
It’s the familiar, boring game.
We’re going round and round on our heels.
The world’s become a scarier place.
Stay awake
Tons of work that always wait
No time to waste
Not many choices anyway
Ask me not
Never judge anyome
‘though I couldn’t help
when you decided to ridicule me
for being surrounded by boys
I chose to call friends