A Spirit's Return

…….."This is to be a mortal,

And seek the things beyond mortality!" ~ Manfred.

Thy voice prevails — dear friend, my gentle friend!

This long-shut heart for thee shall be unsealed,

And though thy soft eye mournfully will bend

Over the troubled stream, yet once revealed

Shall its freed waters flow; then rocks must close

For evermore, above their dark repose.

Come while the gorgeous mysteries of the sky  

Fused in the crimson sea of sunset lie;

Come to the woods, where all strange wandering sound

Is mingled into harmony profound;

Where the leaves thrill with spirit, while the wind

Fills with a viewless being, unconfined,

The trembling reeds and fountains — our own dwell,

With its green dimness and AEolian breath,

Shall suit the unveiling of dark records well —

Hear me in tenderness and silent faith!

Thou knewest me not in life's fresh vernal morn —

I would thou hadst! — for then my heart on thine

Had poured a worthier love; now, all o'erworn

By its deep thirst for something too divine,

It hath but fitful music to bestow,

Echoes of harp-strings broken long ago.

Yet even in youth companionless I stood,

As a lone forest-bird 'midst ocean's foam;

For me the silver cords of brotherhood

Were early loosed; the voice from my home

Passed one by one, and melody and mirth

Left me a dreamer by a silent hearth.

But, with the fulness of a heart that burned

For the deep sympathies of mind, I turned

From that unanswering spot, and fondly sought

In all wild scenes with thrilling murmurs fraught,

In every still small voice and sound of power,

And flute-note of the wind through cave and bower

A perilous delight! — for then first woke

My life's lone passion, the mysterious quest

Of secret knowledge; and each tone that broke

From the wood-arches or the fountain's breast,

Making my quick soul vibrate as a lyre,

But ministered to that strange inborn fire.

'Midst the bright silence of the mountain dells,

In noontide hours or golden summer-eves,

My thoughts have burst forth as a gale that swells

Into a rushing blast, and from the leaves

Shakes out response. O thou rich world unseen!

Thou curtained realm of spirits! — thus my cry

Hath troubled air and silence — dost thou lie

Spread all around, yet by some filmy screen

Shut from us ever? The resounding woods,

Do their depths teem with marvels? — and the floods,

And the pure fountains, leading secret veins

Of quenchless melody through rock and hill,

Have they bright dwellers? — are their lone domains

Peopled with beauty, which may never still

Our

weary thirst of soul? Cold, weak and cold,

Is earth's vain language, piercing not one fold

Of our deep being! Oh, for gifts more high!

For a seer's glance to rend mortality!

For a charmed rod, to call from each dark shrine

The oracles divine!

I woke from those high fantasies, to know

My kindred with the earth — I woke to love:

O gentle friend! to love in doubt and woe,

Shutting the heart the worshipped name above,

Is to love deeply — and

my

spirit's dower

Was a sad gift, a melancholy power

Of so adoring — with a buried care,

And with the o'erflowing of a voiceless prayer,

And with a deepening dream that day by day,

In the still shadow of the lonely sway,

Folded me closer, till the world held nought

Save the

one

being to my centred thought.

There was no music but his voice to hear;

No joy but such as with

his

step drew near:

Light was but where he looked — life where he moved:

Silently, fervently, thus, thus I loved.

Oh! but such love is fearful! — and I knew

Its gathering doom: the soul's prophetic sight

Even then unfolded in my breast, and threw

O'er all things round a full, strong, vivid light,

Too sorrowfully clear! — an under-tone

Was given to Nature's harp, for me alone

Whispering of grief.  Of grief? — be strong, awake!

Hath not thy love been victory, O my soul?

Hath not its conflict won a voice to shake

Death's fastness? — a magic to control

Worlds far removed? — from o'er the grave to thee

Love hath made answer; and

thy

tale should be

Sung like a lay of triumph! Now return,

And take thy treasure from its bosomed urn,

And lift it once to light!

                         In fear, in pain,

I said I loved — but yet a heavenly strain

Of sweetness floated down the tearful stream,

A joy flashed through the trouble of my dream!

I knew myself beloved! — we breathed no vow,

No mingling visions might our fate allow,

As unto happy hearts; but still and deep,

Like a rich jewel gleaming in a grave,

Like golden sand in some dark river's wave,

So did my soul that costly knowledge keep

So jealousy! — a thing o'er which to shed,

When stars alone beheld the drooping head,

Lone tears! yet ofttimes burdened with the excess

Of our strange nature's quivering happiness.

But, oh! sweet friend! we dream not of love's might

Till death has robed with soft and solemn light

The image we enshrine! — Before

that

hour,

We have but glimpses of the o'ermastering power

Within us laid! —

then

doth the spirit-flame

With sword-like lightning rend its mortal frame;

The wings of that which pants to follow fast

Shake their clay-bars, as with a prisoned blast—

The sea is in our souls!

                        He died, —

he

died

On whom my lone devotedness was cast!

I might not keep one vigil by his side,

I

, whose wrung heart watched with him to the last!

I might not once his fainting head sustain,

Nor bathe his parched lips in the hour of pain,

Nor say to him "Farewell!" He passed away —

Oh! had

my

love been there, its conquering sway

Had won him back from death! — but thus removed,

Borne o'er the abyss no sounding-line hath proved,

Joined with the unknown, the viewless — he became

Unto my thoughts another, yet the same —

Changed — hallowed — glorified! — and his low grave

Seemed a bright mournful altar — mine, all mine: —

Brother and friend soon left me

that

sole shrine,

The birthright of the faithful! —

their

world's wave

Soon swept them from its brink. Oh! deem thou not

That on the sad and consecrated spot

My soul grew weak!  I tell thee that a power

There kindled heart and lip — a fiery shower

My words were made — a might was given to prayer,

And a strong grasp to passionate despair,

And a dread triumph!  Knowest thou what I sought?

For what high boon my struggling spirit wrought?

— Communion with the dead! — I sent a cry

Through the veiled empires of eternity,

A voice to cleave them! By the mournful truth,

By the lost promise of my blighted youth,

By the strong chain a mighty love can bind

On the beloved, the spell of mind o'er mind;

By words, which in themselves are magic high,

Armed and inspired, and winged with agony;

By tears, which comfort not, but burn, and seem

To bear the heart's blood in their passion-stream;

I summoned, I adjured — with quickened sense,

With the keen vigil of a life intense,

I watched, an answer from the winds to wring,

I listened, if perchance the stream might bring

Token from worlds afar: I taught

one

sound

Unto a thousand echoes — one profound

Imploring accent to the tomb, the sky —

One prayer to-night — "Awake, appear, reply!"

Hast thou been told that from the viewless bourne,

The dark way never hath allowed return?

That all, which tears can move, with life is fled —

That earthly love is powerless on the dead?

Believe it not! — there is a large lone star

Now burning o'er yon western hill afar,

And under its clear light there lies a spot

Which well might utter forth — Believe it not!

I sat beneath that planet — I had wept

My woe to stillness, every night-wind slept;

A hush was on the hills; the very streams

Went by like clouds, or noiseless founts in dreams

And the dark tree o'ershadowing me that hour,

Stood motionless, even as the grey church-tower

Whereon I gazed unconsciously: — there came

A low sound, like the tremor of a flame,

Or like the light quick shiver of a wing,

Flitting through twilight woods, across the air;

And I looked up! Oh! for strong words to bring

Conviction o'er thy thought! Before me there,

He, the departed, stood!  Ay, face to face,

So near, and yet how far!  His form his mien,

Gave to remembrance back each burning trace

Within: — Yet something awfully serene,

Pure, sculpture-like, on the pale brow, that wore

Of the once beating heart no token more;

And stillness on the lip — and o'er the hair

A gleam, that trembled through the breathless air;

And an unfathomed calm, that seemed to lie

In the gave sweetness of the illumined eye;

Told of the gulfs between our being set,

And, as that unsheathed spirit-glance I met,

Made my soul faint: — with

fear?

 Oh!

not

with fear

With the sick feeling that in

his

far sphere

My

love could be as nothing!  But he spoke —

How shall I tell thee of the startling thrill

In that low voice, whose breezy tones could fill

My bosom's infinite? O friend! I woke

Then

first to heavenly life!  Soft, solemn, clear

Breathed the mysterious accents on mine ear,

Yet strangely seem'd as if the while they rose

From depths of distance, o'er the wide repose

Of slumbering waters wafted, or the dells

Of mountains, hollow with sweet echo-cells;

But, as they murmured on, the mortal chill

Passed from me, like a mist before the morn,

And, to that glorious intercourse upborne

By slow degrees, a calm, divinely still,

Possessed my frame: I sought that lighted eye —

From its intense and searching purity

I drank in

soul!

— I questioned of the dead —

Of the hushed, starry shores their footsteps tread,

And I was answered.  If remembrance there,

With dreamy whispers fill the immortal air;

If thought, here piled from many a jewel-heap,

Be treasure in that pensive land to keep;

If love, o'ersweeping change, and blight, and blast,

Find

there

the music of his home at last;

I asked, and I was answered.  Full and high

Was that communion with eternity,

Too rich for aught so fleeting! Like a knell

Swept o'er my sense its closing words, "Farewell,

On earth we meet no more!"  And all was gone —

The pale bright settled brow — the thrilling tone,

The still and shining eye! and never more

May twilight gloom or midnight hush restore

That radiant guest! One full-fraught hour of heaven

To earthly passion's wild implorings given,

Was made my own — the ethereal fire hath shivered

The fragile censer in whose mould it quivered,

Brightly, consumingly!  What now is left?

A faded world, of glory's hues bereft —

A void, a chain!  I dwell 'midst throngs, apart,

In the cold silence of the stranger's heart;

A fixed, immortal shadow stands between

My spirit and life's fast-receding scene;

A gift hath severed me from human ties,

A power is gone from all earth's melodies,

Which never may return: their chords are broken,

The music of another land hath spoken —

No after-sound is sweet!  This weary thirst!

And I have heard celestial fountains burst! —

What

here

shall quench it?

                           Dost thou not rejoice,

When the spring sends forth an awakening voice

Through the young woods? Thou dost! And in that birth

Of early leaves, and flowers, and songs of mirth,

Thousands, like thee, find gladness!  Couldst thou know

How every breeze then summons

me

to go!

How all the light of love and beauty shed

By those rich hours, but wooes me to the dead!

The

only

beautiful that change no more —

The only loved! — the dwellings on the shore

Of spring fulfilled!  The dead! —

whom

call we so?

They that breathe purer air, that feel, that know

Things wrapt from us!  Away! — within me pent,

That which is barred from its own element

Still droops or struggles!  But the day

will

come —

Over the deep the free bird finds its home,

And the stream lingers 'midst the rocks, yet greets

The sea at last; and the winged flower-seed meets

A soil to rest in: shall not

I

, too, be,

My spirit-love! upborne to dwell with thee?

Yes! by the power whose conquering anguish stirred

The tomb, whose cry beyond the stars was heard,

Whose agony of triumph won thee back

Through the dim pass no mortal step may track,

Yet shall we meet! — that glimpse of joy divine

Proved thee for ever and for ever mine!