An ongoing battle

The absence of feeling alive is killing me, quietly

Longing to be true to myself, flooding my consciousness

It is too much to bear in my damaged mind, I must confess

This fear slowly erodes my will to live, it is a harsh duress

But I refuse to believe I am alone in this war of mine

I will not surrender, I will keep fighting for my own shine

Though it is the only thought that is still keeping me alive

The feeling of not being me is a battle I strive to survive

My subconscious is my foe, using my fears as a sword

But I will not give in, I will stay strong, I will not be ignored

I know I am not alone in this struggle, I will find my way

To be the person I truly am, come what may

But I refuse to believe I am alone in this war of mine

I will not surrender, I will keep fighting for my own shine

Though it is still the only thought that is still keeping me alive

The feeling of not being me is a battle I still strive to survive

I will break free from this cage, find my own voice

Embrace my true self, make my own choice

No more fears holding me back, I will be strong

And write my own life, all along

I do believe I am not alone in this war of mine

I will not surrender, I am still fighting for my own shine

Though it is the only thought that does keep me alive

The feeling of not being me

It is the only battle that I will survive.