"DON'T LET ME LOSE"

I know I haven’t

been that kind

not with tons on my mind

I’m still back on my feet

feeble but keeping up

with these erratic beats

I’ve been fighting so hard

I’ve let them all break my heart

It’s always been my stupid expectations

yet I still need to carry on

Don’t let me lose

not when I still want to choose

this freedom I’ve fought for

Don’t let me be locked again,

behind the same old door

restrained in the same old room

with their demands,

their expectations,

and disappointments

I didn’t choose to be used

I’m fed up with these blues

My fiery rage is not helping

because all I want

is my enemies’ suffering

Forgiveness feels so distant

Is that version of me close to being gone?

I refuse to go back home

a loser with a whole in her soul

Don’t let me lose

No, not on this one

I love my personal space

where no one can get too close

just to put me in my disgrace

Please, let this be my safe place...

R.