"HOW TO STOP CARING"

How do I stop caring for you,

after those years of closeness?

How do you go from warm to cold?

Are those elements of indifference you now hold?

How did you do that?

How did you brush off

what once meant so much?

How have you acted

as if we’ve never established that special bond?

I used to wonder:

“How to break a heart?”

I only remember having mine broken,

way too many times,

mostly out of my own stupid expectations.

You used to say to me:

“No, you don’t have that capacity.

I doubt that’s even your capability.

Even if you could,

that would be out of rage,

a spitfire born out of a gaping wound.”

Was that a challenge?

Was it really my weakness?

I’ve always warned those around me:

“Be careful what you wish for.”

No, it’s not a threat.

It’s a fair warning.

Once your wish is granted,

I hope you won’t regret it.

Towards you,

I might let my heart grow cold

and just really stop caring

as if you’ve turned irrelevant

and that your existence

has never meant a damned thing!

R.