"I HAD TO LEAVE YOU"

I had to leave you

behind me, before 2023

My messages have gone unreplied

You were probably busy

and I chose to be kind

by not accusing you of pure ignorance

Perhaps you’ve been in your darkest moments

Sorry I can’t help you much

I know you’ve never even asked

I had to leave you

behind me, before 2023

Perhaps that decision was already made

Maybe you’d already left

and I was saying hello to the invisible wall or the void

Don’t get me wrong,

because I’m not embarrassed or hurt

I just wish you’d come out earlier and said it to my face,

telling me to leave you alone

I had to leave you,

as I’m welcoming 2023.

You know I still care about you,

but I care about myself too.

I need to walk on.

I’m not waiting for anyone.

I’ve been okay, actually.

You were never the whole world to me,

just someone I’d wished you could be.

It’s time to go way past that fantasy.

I’m leaving you now.

No tears run dry.

Perhaps this heart’s grown cold

and I’m just way too old

and probably too bored

to expect anything from anyone.

See?

I can move on.

I am.

Soon I’ll have carried on ...

R.