Sitting In The Car After Cancer Surgery

Head Hurts.

Jaw Hurts.

My Sinuses Hurt.

My Brain Feels Tuned.

My Eyes Feel Tired.

My Emotions Are All Used Up.

My Tears Are Used Up.

I feel relieved.  I want to get under my covers with the pain killer and sleep.  I want to rest this next week and dream until refreshment comes.  Last week, I waited as if in a raquet ball court - nervous energy.  Vitamin 8, basement and shaving dog.  This week, I want to wait for the biopsy results in a different way....in bed, lost in sleep and story, in my studio.  Quiet and still.

The dawn has not come yet - my chances for good news is 50%.  When the coast is clear and the world is good...then I can finally take that sigh...for a while at least.