"THE SAME OLD FRENEMY"

I can never really get rid of you,

can I?

No matter what I do

or how I should often lie

while trying hard not to cry

You've always been there

You still are

Sometimes I'm scared

because you're never really that far

always ready to leave another scar

Sometimes you're the mentor

a challenge to keep me going

Other times, you're just the terror

like Dementor

pushing me down to go sinking

drowning,

until there's no more chance

for me to surface and win

Why are you doing this to me again?

Telling me I'm not good enough

and that I'm such a pain

kidding myself that I'm always tough

only to please every one that I love

You make me want to break the mirror

after our every unpleasant conversation

For too damn long, you've been my horror

that I have no heart to tell them

a part of me might have always been a monster

Now you look like one

and don't ask me to embrace your feelings

Please, just be gone

Leave me alone

Your smile is still condescending

every time you speak before we part:

"Fine,

but we'll still see each other again.

Meanwhile,

keep pretending."

#BreakTheStigma

R.

(Jakarta, 27/7/2017 - 7:15 am)