Three Women

prologue

My love is young, so young;

Young is her cheek, and her throat,

And life is a song to be sung

With love the word for each note.

Young is her cheek and her throat;

Her eyes have the smile o' May.

And love is the word for each note

In the song of my life to-day.

Her eyes have the smile o' May;

Her heart is the heart of a dove,

And the song of my life to-day

Is love, beautiful love.

Her heart is the heart of a dove,

Ah, would it but fly to my breast

Where love, beautiful love,

Has made it a downy nest.

Ah, would she but fly to my breast,

My love who is young, so young;

I have made her a downy nest

And life is a song to be sung.

1

I.

A dull little station, a man with the eye

Of a dreamer; a bevy of girls moving by;

A swift moving train and a hot Summer sun,

The curtain goes up, and our play is begun.

The drama of passion, of sorrow, of strife,

Which always is billed for the theatre Life.

It runs on forever, from year unto year,

With scarcely a change when new actors appear.

It is old as the world is—far older in truth,

For the world is a crude little planet of youth.

And back in the eras before it was formed,

The passions of hearts through the Universe stormed.

Maurice Somerville passed the cluster of girls

Who twisted their ribbons and fluttered their curls

In vain to attract him; his mind it was plain

Was wholly intent on the incoming train.

That great one eyed monster puffed out its black breath,

Shrieked, snorted and hissed, like a thing bent on death,

Paused scarcely a moment, and then sped away,

And two actors more now enliven our play.

A graceful young woman with eyes like the morn,

With hair like the tassels which hang from the corn,

And a face that might serve as a model for Peace,

Moved lightly along, smiled and bowed to Maurice,

Then was lost in the circle of friends waiting near.

A discord of shrill nasal tones smote the ear,

As they greeted their comrade and bore her from sight.

(The ear oft is pained while the eye feels delight

In the presence of women throughout our fair land:

God gave them the graces which win and command,

But the devil, who always in mischief rejoices,

Slipped into their teachers and ruined their voices.)

There had stepped from the train just behind Mabel Lee

A man whose deportment bespoke him to be

A child of good fortune. His mien and his air

Were those of one all unaccustomed to care.

His brow was not vexed with the gold seeker's worry,

His manner was free from the national hurry.

Repose marked his movements. Yet gaze in his eye,

And you saw that this calm outer man was a lie;

And you knew that deep down in the depths of his breast

There dwelt the unmerciful imp of unrest.

He held out his hand; it was clasped with a will

In both the firm palms of Maurice Somerville.

"Well, Reese, my old Comrade;" "Ha, Roger, my boy,"

They cried in a breath, and their eyes gemmed with joy

(Which but for their sex had been set in a tear),

As they walked arm in arm to the trap waiting near,

And drove down the shining shell roadway which wound

Through forest and meadow, in search of the Sound.

     Roger:

I smell the salt water—that perfume which starts

The blood from hot brains back to world withered hearts;

You may talk of the fragrance of flower filled fields,

You may sing of the odors the Orient yields,

You may tell of the health laden scent of the pine,

But give me the subtle salt breath of the brine.

Already I feel lost emotions of youth

Steal back to my soul in their sweetness and truth;

Small wonder the years leave no marks on your face,

Time's scythe gathers rust in this idyllic place.

You must feel like a child on the Great Mother's breast,

With the Sound like a nurse watching over your rest?

     Maurice:

There is beauty and truth in your quaint simile,

I love the Sound more than the broad open sea.

The ocean seems always stern, masculine, bold,

The Sound is a woman, now warm, and now cold.

It rises in fury and threatens to smite,

Then falls at your feet with a coo of delight;

Capricious, seductive, first frowning, then smiling,

And always, whatever its mood is, beguiling.

Look, now you can see it, bright beautiful blue,

And far in the distance there loom into view

The banks of Long Island, full thirty miles off;

A sign of wet weather to-morrow. Don't scoff!

We people who chum with the waves and the wind

Know more than all wise signal bureaus combined.

But come, let us talk of yourself—for of me

There is little to tell which your eyes may not see.

Since we finished at College (eight years, is it not?)

I simply have dreamed away life in this spot.

With my dogs and my horses, a book and a pen,

And a week spent in town as a change now and then.

Fatigue for the body, disease for the mind,

Are all that the city can give me, I find.

Yet once in a while there is wisdom I hold

In leaving the things that are dearer than gold,—

Loved people and places—if only to learn

The exquisite rapture it is to return.

But you, I remember, craved motion and change;

You hated the usual, worshiped the strange.

Adventure and travel I know were your theme:

Well, how did the real compare with the dream?

You have compassed the earth since we parted at Yale,

Has life grown the richer, or only grown stale?

     Roger:

Stale, stale, my dear boy! that's the story in short,

I am weary of travel, adventure and sport;

At home and abroad, in all climates and lands,

I have had what life gives when a full purse commands

I have chased after Pleasure, that phantom faced elf,

And lost the best part of my youth and myself.

And now, barely thirty, I'm heart sick and blue;

Life seems like a farce scarcely worth sitting through.

I dread its long stretch of dissatisfied years;

Ah! wealth is not always the boon it appears.

And poverty lights not such ruinous fires

As gratified appetites, tastes and desires.

Fate curses, when letting us do as we please—

It stunts a man's soul to be cradled in ease.

     Maurice:

You are right in a measure; the devil I hold

Is oftener found in full coffers of gold

Than in bare, empty larders. The soul, it is plain,

Needs the conflicts of earth, needs the stress and the strain

Of misfortune, to bring out its strength in this life—

The Soul's calisthenics are sorrow and strife.

But, Roger, what folly to stand in youth's prime

And talk like a man who could father old Time.

You have life all before you; the past,—let it sleep;

Its lessons alone are the things you should keep.

There is virtue sometimes in our follies and sinnings;

Right lives very often have faulty beginnings.

Results, and not causes, are what we should measure.

You have learned precious truths in your search after pleasure.

You have learned that a glow worm is never a star,

You have learned that Peace builds not her temples afar.

And now, dispossessed of the spirit to roam,

You are finely equipped to establish a home.

That's the one thing you need to lend savor to life,

A home, and the love of a sweet hearted wife,

And children to gladden the path to old age.

     Roger:

Alas! from life's book I have torn out that page;

I have loved many times and in many a fashion,

Which means I know nothing at all of the passion.

I have scattered my heart, here and there, bit by bit,

'Til now there is nothing worth while left of it;

And, worse than all else, I have ceased to believe

In the virtue and truth of the daughters of Eve.

There's tragedy for you—when man's early trust

In woman, experience hurls to the dust!

     Maurice:

Then you doubt your own mother?

     Roger:

She passed heavenward

Before I remember; a saint, I have heard,

While she lived; there are scores of good women to-day,

Temptation has chanced not to wander their way.

The devil has more than his lordship can do,

He can't make the rounds, so some women keep true.

     Maurice:

You think then each woman, if tempted, must fall?

     Roger:

Yes, if tempted her way—not one way suits them all—

They have tastes in their sins as they have in their clothes,

The tempter, of course, has to first study those.

One needs to be flattered, another is bought;

One yields to caresses, by frowns one is caught.

One wants a bold master, another a slave,

With one you must jest, with another be grave.

But swear you're a sinner whom she has reformed

And the average feminine fortress is stormed.

In rescuing men from abysses of sin

She loses her head—and herself tumbles in.

The mind of a woman was shaped for a saint,

But deep in her heart lies the devil's own taint.

With plans for salvation her busy brain teems,

While her heart longs in secret to know how sin seems.

And if with this question unanswered she dies,

Temptation came not in the right sort of guise.

There's my estimate, Reese, of the beautiful sex;

I see by your face that my words wound and vex,

But remember, my boy, I'm a man of the world.

     Maurice:

Thank God, in the vortex I have not been hurled.

If experience breeds such a mental disease,

I am glad I have lived with the birds and the bees,

And the winds and the waves, and let people alone.

So far in my life but good women I've known.

My mother, my sister, a few valued friends—

A teacher, a schoolmate, and there the list ends.

But to know one true woman in sunshine and gloom,

From the zenith of life to the door of the tomb,

To know her, as I knew that mother of mine,

Is to know the whole sex and to kneel at the shrine.

     Roger:

Then you think saint and woman synonymous terms?

     Maurice:

Oh, no! we are all, men and women, poor worms

Crawling up from the dampness and darkness of clay

To bask in the sunlight and warmth of the day.

Some climb to a leaf and reflect its bright sheen,

Some toil through the grass, and are crushed there unseen.

Some sting if you touch them, and some evolve wings;

Yet God dwells in each of the poor, groping things.

They came from the Source—to the Source they go back;

The sinners are those who have missed the true track.

We can not judge women or men as a class,

Each soul has its own distinct place in the mass.

There is no sex in sin; it were folly to swear

All women are angels, but worse to declare

All are devils as you do. You're morbid, my boy,

In what you thought gold you have found much alloy

And now you are doubting there is the true ore.

But wait till you study my sweet simple store

Of pure sterling treasures; just wait till you've been

A few restful weeks, or a season, within

The charmed circle of home life; then, Roger, you'll find

These malarial mists clearing out of your mind.

As a ship cuts the fog and is caught by the breeze,

And swept through the sunlight to fair, open seas,

So your heart will be caught and swept out to the ocean

Of youth and youth's birthright of happy emotion.

I'll wager my hat (it was new yesterday)

That you'll fall in love, too, in a serious way.

Our girls at Bay Bend are bewitching and fair,

And Cupid lurks ever in salt Summer air.

     Roger:

I question your gifts as a prophet, and yet,

I confess in my travels I never have met

A woman whose face so impressed me at sight,

As one seen to-day; a mere girl, sweet and bright,

Who entered the train quite alone and sat down

Surrounded by parcels she'd purchased in town.

A trim country lass, but endowed with the beauty

Which makes a man think of his conscience and duty.

Some women, you know, move us that way—God bless them,

While others rouse only a thirst to possess them

The face of the girl made me wish to be good,

I went out and smoked to escape from the mood.

When conscience through half a man's life has been sleeping

What folly to wake it to worry and weeping!

     Maurice:

The pessimist role is a modern day fad,

But, Roger, you make a poor cynic, my lad.

Your heart at the core is as sound as a nut,

Though the wheels of your mind have dropped into the rut

Of wrong thinking. You need a strong hand on the lever

Of good common sense, and an earnest endeavor

To pull yourself out of the slough of despond

Back into the highway of peace just beyond.

And now, here we are at Peace Castle in truth,

And there stands its Chatelaine, sweet Sister Ruth,

To welcome you, Roger; you'll find a new type

In this old-fashioned girl, who in years scarcely ripe,

And as childish in heart as she is in her looks,

And without worldly learning or knowledge of books,

Yet in housewifely wisdom is wise as a sage.

She is quite out of step with the girls of her age,

For she has no ambition beyond the home sphere.

Ruth, here's Roger Montrose, my comrade of dear College days.

The gray eyes of the girl of nineteen

Looked into the face oft in fancy she'd seen

When her brother had talked of his comrade at Yale.

His stature was lower, his cheek was more pale

Than her thought had portrayed him; a look in his eye

Made her sorry, she knew not for what nor knew why,

But she longed to befriend him, as one needing aid.

While he, gazing down on the face of the maid,

Spoke some light words of greeting, the while his mind ran

On her "points" good and bad; for the average man

When he looks at a woman proceeds first to scan her

As if she were horse flesh, and in the same manner

Notes all that is pleasing, or otherwise. So

Roger gazed at Ruth Somerville.

"Mouth like a bow

And eyes full of motherhood; color too warm,

And too round in the cheek and too full in the form

For the highest ideal of beauty and art.

Domestic—that word is the cue to her part

She would warm a man's slippers, but never his veins;

She would feed well his stomach, but never his brains.

And after she looks on her first baby's face,

Her husband will hold but a second-class place

In her thoughts or emotions, unless he falls ill,

When a dozen trained nurses her place can not fill.

She is sweet of her kind; and her kind since the birth

Of this sin ridden, Circe-cursed planet, the Earth,

Has kept it, I own, with its medleys of evil

From going straight into the hands of the devil.

It is not through its heroes the world lives and thrives,

But through its sweet commonplace mothers and wives.

We love them, and leave them; deceive, and respect them,

We laud loud their virtues and straightway neglect them.

They are daisy and buttercup women of earth

Who grace common ways with their sweetness and worth.

We praise, but we pass them, to reach for some flower

That stings when we pluck it, or wilts in an hour.

"You are thornless, fair Ruth! you are useful and sweet!

But lovers shall pass you to sigh at the feet

Of the selfish and idle, for such is man's way;

Your lot is to work, and to weep, and to pray.

To give much and get little; to toil and to wait

For the meager rewards of indifferent fate.

Yet so wholesome your heart, you will never complain;

You will feast on life's sorrow and drink of its pain,

And thank God for the banquet; 'tis women like you

Who make the romancing of preachers seem true.

The earth is your debtor to such large amounts

There must be a heaven to square up accounts,

Or else the whole scheme of existence at best

Is a demon's poor effort at making a jest."

That night as Ruth brushed out her bright hazel hair

Her thoughts were of Roger, "His bold laughing air

Is a cloak to some sorrow concealed in his breast,

His mind is the home of some secret unrest."

She sighed; and there woke in her bosom once more

The impulse to comfort and help him; to pour

Soothing oil from the urn of her heart on his wounds.

Where motherhood nature in woman abounds

It is thus Cupid comes; unannounced and unbidden,

In sweet pity's guise, with his arrows well hidden.

But once given welcome and housed as a guest,

He hurls the whole quiver full into her breast,

While he pulls off his mask and laughs up in her eyes

With an impish delight at her start of surprise.

So intent is this archer on bagging his game

He scruples at nothing which gives him good aim.

Ruth's heart was a virgin's, in love menaced danger

While she sat by her mirror and pitied the stranger.

But just as she blew out her candle and stood

Robed for sleep in the moonlight, a change in her mood

Quickly banished the dreamer, and brought in its stead

The practical housekeeper. Sentiment fled;

And she puzzled her brain to decide which were best,

Corn muffins or hot graham gems, for the guest!

2

II.

The short-sighted minister preached at Bay Bend

His long-winded sermon quite through to the end,

Unmindful there sat in the Somerville pew

A stranger whose pale handsome countenance drew

All eyes from his own reverend self; nor suspected

What Ruth and her brother too plainly detected

That the stranger was bored.

"Though his gaze never stirred

From the face of the preacher, his heart has not heard,"

Ruth said to herself; and her soft mother-eye

Was fixed on his face with a look like a sigh

In its tremulous depths, as they rose to depart.

Then suddenly Roger, alert, seemed to start

And his dull, listless glance changed to one of surprise

And of pleasure. Ruth saw that the goal of his eyes

Was her friend Mabel Lee in the vestibule; fair

As a saint that is pictured with sun tangled hair

And orbs like the skies in October. She smiled,

And the saint disappeared in the innocent child

With an unconscious dower of beauty and youth

She paused in the vestibule waiting for Ruth

And seemed not to notice the warm eager gaze

Of two men fixed upon her in different ways.

One, the look which souls lift to a being above,

The other a look of unreasoning love

Born of fancy and destined to grow in an hour

To a full fledged emotion of mastering power.

She spoke, and her voice disappointed the ear;

It lacked some deep chords that the heart hoped to hear.

It was sweet, but not vibrant; it came from the throat,

And one listened in vain for a full chested note.

While something at times like a petulant sound

Seemed in strange disaccord with the peace so profound

Of the eyes and the brow.

Though our sight is deceived

The ear is an organ that may be believed.

The faces of people are trained to conceal,

But their unruly voices are prone to reveal

What lies deep in their natures; a voice rarely lies,

But Mabel Lee's voice told one tale, while her eyes

Told another. Large, liquid, and peaceful as lakes

Where the azure dawn rests, ere the loud world awakes,

Were the beautiful eyes of the maiden. "A saint,

Without mortal blemish or weak human taint,"

Said Maurice to himself. To himself Roger said:

"The touch of her soft little hands on my head

Would convert me. What peace for a world weary breast

To just sit by her side and be soothed into rest."

Daring thoughts for a stranger. Maurice, who had known

Mabel Lee as a child, to himself would not own

Such bold longings as those were. He held her to be

Too sacred for even a thought that made free.

And the voice in his bosom was silenced and hushed

Lest the bloom from her soul by his words should be brushed.

There are men to whom love is religion; but woman

Is far better pleased with a homage more human.

Though she may not be able to love in like fashion,

She wants to be wooed with both ardor and passion.

Had Mabel Lee read Roger's thoughts of her, bold

Though they were, they had flattered and pleased her, I hold.

The stranger was duly presented.

     Roger:

Miss Lee,

I am sure, has no least recollection of me,

But the pleasure is mine to have looked on her face

Once before this.

     Mabel:

Indeed? May I ask where?

     Roger:

The place

Was the train, and the time yesterday.

     Mabel:

"Then I came

From my shopping excursion in town by the same

Fast express which brought you? Had I known that the friend

Of my friends, was so near me en route for Bay Bend,

I had waived all conventions and asked him to take

One-half of my parcels for sweet pity's sake.

     Roger:

You sadden me sorely. As long as I live

I shall mourn the great pleasure chance chose not to give.

     Maurice:

Take courage, mon ami. Our fair friend, Miss Lee,

Fills her time quite as full of sweet works as the bee;

Like the bee, too, she drives out the drones from her hive.

You must toil in her cause, in her favor to thrive.

     Roger:

She need but command me. To wait upon beauty

And goodness combined makes a pleasure of duty.

     Maurice:

Who serves Mabel Lee serves all Righteousness too.

Pray, then, that she gives you some labor to do.

The cure for the pessimist lies in good deeds.

Who toils for another forgets his own needs,

And mischief and misery never attend

On the man who is occupied fully.

     Ruth:

Our friend

Has the town on her shoulders. Whatever may be

The cause that is needy, we look to Miss Lee.

Have you gold? She will make you disgorge it ere long;

Are you poor? Well, perchance you can dance—sing a song—

Make a speech—tell a story, or plan a charade.

Whatever you have, gold or wits, sir, must aid

In her numerous charities.

     Mabel:

Riches and brain

Are but loans from the Master. He meant them, 'tis plain,

To be used in His service; and people are kind,

When once you can set them to thinking. I find

It is lack of perception, not lack of good heart

Which makes the world selfish in seeming. My part

Is to call the attention of Plenty to need,

And to bid Pleasure pause for a moment and heed

The woes and the burdens of Labor.

     Roger:

One plea

From the rosy and eloquent lips of Miss Lee

Would make Avarice pour out his coffers of gold

At her feet, I should fancy; would soften the cold,

Selfish heart of the world to compassionate sighs,

And bring tears of pity to vain Pleasure's eyes.

As the sunset a color on lily leaves throws,

The words and the glances of Roger Montrose

O'er the listener's cheeks sent a pink tinted wave;

While Maurice seemed disturbed, and his sister grew grave.

The false chink of flattery's coin smites the ear

With an unpleasant ring when the heart is sincere.

Yet the man whose mind pockets are filled with this ore,

Though empty his brain cells, is never a bore

To the opposite sex.

While Maurice knew of old

Roger's wealth in that coin that does duty for gold

In Society dealings, it hurt him to see

The cheap metal offered to sweet Mabel Lee.

(Yet, perchance, the hurt came, not so much that 'twas offered,

As in seeing her take, with a smile, what was proffered.)

They had walked, two by two, down the elm shaded street,

Which led to a cottage, vine hidden, and sweet

With the breath of the roses that covered it, where

Mabel paused in the gateway; a picture most fair.

"I would ask you to enter," she said, "ere you pass,

But in just twenty minutes my Sunday-school class

Claims my time and attention; and later I meet

A Committee on Plans for the boys of the street.

We seek to devise for these pupils in crime

Right methods of thought and wise uses of time.

     Roger:

I am but a vagrant, untutored and wild,

May I join your street class, and be taught like a child?

     Mabel:

If you come I will carefully study your case.

     Maurice:

I must go along, too, just to keep him in place.

     Mabel:

Then you think him unruly?

     Maurice:

Decidedly so.

     Roger:

I was, but am changed since one-half hour ago.

     Mabel:

The change is too sudden to be of much worth;

The deepest convictions are slowest of birth.

Conversion, I hold, to be earnest and lasting,

Begins with repentance and praying and fasting,

And (begging your pardon for such a bold speech),

You seem, sir, a stranger to all and to each

Of these ways of salvation.

     Roger:

Since yesterday, miss,

When, unseen, I first saw you (believe me in this),

I have deeply repented my sins of the past.

To-night I will pray, and to-morrow will fast—

Or, make it next week, when my shore appetite

May be somewhat subdued in its ravenous might.

     Maurice:

That's the way of the orthodox sinner! He waits

Until time or indulgence or misery sates

All his appetites, then his repentance begins,

When his sins cease to please, then he gives up his sins

And grows pious. Now prove you are morally brave

By actually giving up something you crave!

We have fricasseed chicken and strawberry cake

For our dinner to-day.

     Roger:

For dear principle's sake

I could easily do what you ask, were it not

Most unkind to Miss Ruth, who gave labor and thought

To that menu, preparing it quite to my taste.

     Ruth:

But the thought and the dinner will both go to waste,

If we linger here longer; and Mabel, I see,

Is impatient to go to her duties.

     Roger:

The bee

Is reluctant to turn from the lily although

The lily may obviously wish he would go

And leave her to muse in the sunlight alone.

Yet when the rose calls him, his sorrow, I own,

Has its recompense. So from delight to delight

I fly with my wings honeyladen.

Good night.

3

III.

prologue

Oh, love is like the dawnlight

That turns the dark to day,

And love is like the deep night

With secrets hid away.

And love is like the moonlight

Where tropic Summers glow,

And love is like the twilight

When dreams begin to grow.

Oh, love is like the sunlight

That sets the world ablaze.

And love is like the moonlight

With soft, illusive rays.

And love is like the starlight

That glimmers o'er the skies.

And love is like the far light

That shines from God's great eyes.

Maurice Somerville from his turreted den

Looked out of the window and laid down his pen.

A soft salty wind from the water was blowing,

Below in the garden sat Ruth with her sewing.

And stretched on the grass at her feet Roger lay

With a book in his hand.

Through the ripe August day,

Piped the Katydids' voices, Jack Frost's tally-ho

Commanding Queen Summer to pack up and go.

Maurice leaned his head on the casement and sighed,

Strong and full in his heart surged love's turbulent tide.

And thoughts of the woman he worshiped with longing

Took shape and like angels about him came thronging.

The world was all Mabel! her exquisite face

Seemed etched on the sunlight and gave it its grace;

Her eyes made the blue of the heavens, the sun

Was her wonderful hair caught and coiled into one

Shining mass. With a reverent, worshipful awe,

It was Mabel, fair Mabel, dear Mabel he saw,

When he looked up to God.

They had been much together

Through all the bright stretches of midsummer weather,

Ruth, Roger, and Mabel and he. Scarce a day

But the four were united in work or in play.

And much of the play to a man or a maid

Not in love had seemed labor. Recital, charade,

Garden party, church festival, musical, hop,

Were all planned by Miss Lee without respite or stop.

The poor were the richer; school, hospital, church,

The heathen, the laborer left in the lurch

By misfortune, the orphan, the indigent old,

Our kind Lady Bountiful aided with gold

Which she filched from the pockets of pleasure—God's spoil,

And God's blessing will follow such lives when they toil

Through an infinite sympathy.

Fair Mabel Lee

Loved to rule and to lead. She was eager to be

In the eyes of the public. That modern day craze

Possessed her in secret, and this was its phase.

An innocent, even commendable, fad

Which filled empty larders and cheered up the sad.

She loved to do good. But, alas! in her heart,

She loved better still the authoritative part

Which she played in her town.

'Neath the saint's aureole

Lurked the feminine tyrant who longed to control,

And who never would serve; but her sway was so sweet,

That her world was contented to bow at her feet.

Who toils in the great public vineyard must needs

Let other hands keep his own garden from weeds.

So busy was Mabel with charity fairs

She gave little thought to her home or its cares.

Mrs. Lee, like the typical modern day mother,

Was maid to her daughter; the father and brother

Were slaves at her bidding; an excellent plan

To make a tyrannical wife for some man.

Yet where was the man who, beholding the grace

Of that slight girlish creature, and watching her face

With its infantile beauty and sweetness, would dare

Think aught but the rarest of virtues dwelt there?

Rare virtues she had, but in commonplace ones

Which make happy husbands and home loving sons

She was utterly lacking. Ruth Somerville saw

In sorrow and silence this blemishing flaw

In the friend whom she loved with devotion! Maurice

Saw only the angel with eyes full of peace.

The faults of plain women are easily seen.

But who cares to peer back of beauty's fair screen

For things which are ugly to look on?

The lover

Is not quite in love when his sharp eyes discover

The flaws in his jewel.

Maurice from his room

Looked dreamily down on the garden of bloom,

Where Ruth sat with Roger; he smiled as he thought

How quickly the world sated cynic was brought

Into harness by Cupid. The man mad with drink,

And the man mad with love, is quite certain to think

All other men drunkards or lovers. In truth

Maurice had expected his friend to love Ruth.

"She was young, she was fair; with her bright sunny art

She could scatter the mists from his world befogged heart.

She could give him the one heaven under God's dome,

A peaceful, well ordered, and love-guarded home.

And he? why of course he would worship her! When

Cupid finds the soft spot in the hearts of such men

They are ideal husbands." Maurice Somerville

Felt the whole world was shaping itself to his will.

And his heart stirred with joy as, by thought necromancy,

He made the near future unfold to his fancy,

And saw Ruth the bride of his friend, and the place

She left vacant supplied with the beauty and grace

Of this woman he longed for, the love of his life,

Fair Mabel, his angel, his sweet spirit wife.

Maurice to his desk turned again and once more

Began to unburden his bosom and pour

His heart out on paper—the poet's relief,

When drunk with life's rapture or sick with its grief.

Song.

When shall I tell my lady that I love her?

Will it be while the sunshine woos the world,

Or when the mystic twilight bends above her,

Or when the day's bright banners all are furled?

Will wild winds shriek, or will the calm stars glow,

When I shall tell her that I love her so,

I love her so?

I think the sun should shine in all his glory;

Again, the twilight seems the fitting time.

Yet sweet dark night would understand the story,

So old, so new, so tender, so sublime.

Wild storms should rage to chord with my desire,

Yet faithful stars should shine and never tire,

And never tire.

Ah, if my lady will consent to listen,

All hours, will times, shall hear my story told.

In amorous dawns, on nights when pale stars glisten

In dim hushed gloamings and in noon hours bold,

While thunders crash, and while the winds breathe low,

Will I re-tell her that I love her so.

I love her so.

4

IV.

The October day had been luscious and fair

Like a woman of thirty. A chill in the air

As the sun faced the west spoke of frost lurking near

All day the Sound lay without motion, and clear

As a mirror, and blue as a blond baby's eyes.

A change in the tide brought a change to the skies.

The bay stirred and murmured and parted its lips

And breathed a long sigh for the lost lovely ships,

That had gone with the Summer.

Its calm placid breast

Was stirred into passionate pain and unrest.

Not a sail, not a sail anywhere to be seen!

The soft azure eyes of the sea turned to green.

A sudden wind rose; like a runaway horse

Unchecked and unguided it sped on its course.

The waves bared their teeth, and spat spray in the face

Of the furious gale as they fled in the chase.

The sun hurried into a cloud; and the trees

Bowed low and yet lower, as if to appease

The wrath of the storm king that threatened them Close

To the waves at their wildest stood Roger Montrose.

The day had oppressed him; and now the unrest

Of the wind beaten sea brought relief to his breast,

Or at least brought the sense of companionship. Lashed

By his higher emotions, the man's passions dashed

On the shore of his mind in a frenzy of pain,

Like the waves on the rocks, and a frenzy as vain.

Since the day he first looked on her face, Mabel Lee

Had seemed to his self sated nature to be,

On life's troubled ocean, a beacon of light,

To guide him safe out from the rocks and the night.

Her calm soothed his passion; her peace gave him poise;

She seemed like a silence in life's vulgar noise.

He bathed in the light which her purity cast,

And felt half absolved from the sins of the past.

He longed in her mantle of goodness to hide

And forget the whole world. By the incoming tide

He talked with his heart as one talks with a friend

Who is dying. "The summer has come to an end

And I wake from my dreaming," he mused. "Wake to know

That my place is not here—I must go I must go.

Who dares laugh at Love shall hear Love laughing last,

As forth from his bowstring barbed arrows are cast.

I scoffed at the god with a sneer on my lip,

And he forces me now from his chalice to sip

A bitter sweet potion. Ah, lightly the part

Of a lover I've played many times, but my heart

Has been proud in its record of friendship. And now

The mad, eager lover born in me must bow

To the strong claims of friendship. I love Mabel Lee;

Dared I woo as I would, I could make her love me.

The soul of a maid who knows not passion's fire

Is moth to the flame of a man's strong desire.

With one kiss on her lips I could banish the nun

And wake in her virginal bosom the one

Mighty love of her life. If I leave her, I know

She will be my friend's wife in a season or so.

He loves her, he always has loved her; 'tis he

Who ever will do all the loving; and she

Will accept it, and still be the saint to the end,

And she never will know what she missed; but my friend

Has the right to speak first. God! how can he delay?

I marvel at men who are fashioned that way.

He has worshiped her since first she put up her tresses,

And let down the hem of her school-girlish dresses

And now she is full twenty-two; were I he

A brood of her children should climb on my knee

By this time! What a sin against love to postpone

The day that might make her forever his own.

The man who can wait has no blood in his veins.

Maurice is a dreamer, he loves with his brains

Not with soul and with senses. And yet his whole life

Will be blank if he makes not this woman his wife.

She is woof of his dreams, she is warp of his mind;

Who tears her away shall leave nothing behind.

No, no, I am going: farewell to Bay Bend

I am no woman's lover—I am one man's friend.

Still-born in the arms of the matron eyed year

Lies the beautiful dream that my life buries here.

Its tomb was its cradle; it came but to taunt me,

It died, but its phantom shall ever more haunt me."

He turned from the waves that leaped at him in wrath

To find Mabel Lee, like a wraith, in his path.

The rose from her cheek had departed in fear;

The tip of her eyelash was gemmed with a tear.

The rude winds had disarranged mantle and dress,

And she clung with both hands to her hat in distress.

"I am frightened," she cried, in a tremulous tone;

"I dare not proceed any farther alone.

As I came by the church yard the wind felled a tree,

And invisible hands seemed to hurl it at me;

I hurried on, shrieking; the wind, in disgust,

Tore the hat from my head, filled my eyes full of dust,

And otherwise made me the butt of its sport.

Just then I spied you, like a light in the port,

And I steered for you. Please do not laugh at my fright!

I am really quite bold in the calm and the light,

But when a storm gathers, or darkness prevails,

My courage deserts me, my bravery fails,

And I want to hide somewhere and cover my ears,

And give myself up to weak womanish tears."

Her ripple of talk allowed Roger Montrose

A few needed moments to calm and compose

His excited emotions; to curb and control

The turbulent feelings that surged through his soul

At the sudden encounter.

"I quite understand,"

He said in a voice that was under command

Of his will, "All your fears in a storm of this kind.

There is something uncanny and weird in the wind;

Intangible, viewless, it speeds on its course,

And forests and oceans must yield to its force.

What art has constructed with patience and toil,

The wind in one second of time can despoil.

It carries destruction and death and despair,

Yet no man can follow it into its lair

And bind it or stay it—this thing without form.

Ah! there comes the rain! we are caught in the storm.

Put my coat on your shoulders and come with me where

Yon rock makes a shelter—I often sit there

To watch the great conflicts 'twixt tempest and sea.

Let me lie at your feet! 'Tis the last time, Miss Lee,

I shall see you, perchance, in this life, who can say?

I leave on the morrow at break o' the day."

     Mabel:

Indeed? Why, how sudden! and may I inquire

The reason you leave us without one desire

To return? for your words seem a final adieu.

     Roger:

I never expect to return, that is true,

Yet my wish is to stay.

     Mabel:

Are you not your own master?

     Roger:

Alas, yes! and therein lies the cause of disaster.

Myself bids me go, my calm, reasoning part,

The will is the man, not the poor, foolish heart,

Which is ever at war with the intellect. So

I silence its clamoring voices and go.

Were I less my own master, I then might remain.

     Mabel:

Your words are but riddles, I beg you explain.

     Roger:

No, no, rather bid me keep silent! To say

Why I go were as weak on my part as to stay.

     Mabel:

I think you most cruel! You know, sir, my sex

Loves dearly a secret. Then why should you vex

And torment me in this way by hinting at one?

     Roger:

Let us talk of the weather, I think the storm done.

     Mabel:

Very well! I will go! No, you need not come too,

And I will not shake hands, I am angry with you.

     Roger:

And you will not shake hands when we part for all time?

     Mabel:

Then read me your riddle!

     Roger:

No, that were a crime

Against honor and friendship; girl, girl, have a care—

You are goading my poor, tortured heart to despair.

His last words were lost in the loud thunder's crash;

The sea seemed ablaze with a sulphurous flash.

From the rocks just above them an evergreen tree

Was torn up by the roots and flung into the sea.

The waves with rude arms hurled it back on the shore;

The wind gained in fury. The glare and the roar

Of the lightning and tempest paled Mabel Lee's cheek.

Her pupils dilated; she sprang with a shriek

Of a terrified child lost to all save alarm,

And clasped Roger Montrose with both hands by the arm,

While her cheek pressed his shoulder. An agony, sweet

And unbearable, thrilled from his head to his feet,

His veins were like rivers, with billows of fire:

His will lost control; and long fettered desire

Slipped its leash. He caught Mabel Lee to his breast,

Drew her face up to his, on her frightened lips pressed

Wild caresses of passion that startled and shocked.

Like a madman he looked, like a madman he talked,

Waiting not for reply, with no pause but a kiss,

While his iron arms welded her bosom to his.

"Girl, girl, you demanded my secret," he cried;

"Well, that bruise on your lips tells the story! I tried,

Good God, how I tried! to be silent and go

Without speaking one word, without letting you know

That I loved you; yet how could you look in my eyes

And not see love was there like the sun in the skies?

Ah, those hands on my arm—that dear head lightly pressed

On my shoulder! God, woman, the heart in my breast

Was dry powder, your touch was the spark; and the blame

Must be yours if both lives are scorched black with the flame.

Do you hate me, despise me, for being so weak?

No, no! let me kiss you again ere you speak!

You are mine for the moment; and mine—mine alone

Is the first taste of passion your soft mouth has known.

Whoever forestalls me in winning your hand,

Between you and him shall this mad moment stand—

You shall think of me, though you think only to hate.

There—speak to me—speak to me—tell me my fate;

On your words, Mabel Lee, hangs my whole future life.

I covet you, covet you, sweet, for my wife;

I want to stay here at your side. Since I first

Saw your face I have felt an unquenchable thirst

To be good—to look deep in your eyes and find God,

And to leave in the past the dark paths I have trod

In my search after pleasure. Ah, must I go back

Into folly again, to retread the old track

Which leads out into nothingness? Girl, answer me,

As souls answer at Judgment."

The face of the sea

Shone with sudden pink splendor. The riotous wind

Swooned away with exhaustion. Each dark cloud seemed lined

With vermilion. The tempest was over. A word

Floated up like a feather; the silence was stirred

By the soul of a sigh. The last remnant of gray

In the skies turned to gold, as a voice whispered, "Stay."

5

V.

prologue

God grinds His poor people to powder

All day and all night I can hear,

Their cries growing louder and louder.

Oh, God, have You deadened Your ear?

The chimes in old Trinity steeple

Ring in the sweet season of prayer,

And still God is grinding His people,

He is grinding them down to despair.

Mind, body and muscle and marrow,

He grinds them again and again.

Can He who takes heed of the sparrow

Be blind to the tortures of men?

In a bare little room of a tenement row

Of the city, Maurice sat alone. It was so

(In this nearness to life's darkest phases of grief

And despair) that his own bitter woe found relief.

Joy needs no companion; but sorrow and pain

Long to comrade with sorrow. The flowery chain

Flung by Pleasure about her gay votaries breaks

With the least strain upon it. The chain sorrow makes

Links heart unto heart. As a bullock will fly

To far fields when an arrow has pierced him, to die,

So Maurice had flown over far oceans to find

No balm for his wounds, and no peace for his mind.

Cosmopolitan, always, is sorrow; at home

In all countries and lands, thriving well while we roam

In vain efforts to slay it. Toil only, brings peace

To the tempest tossed heart. What in travel Maurice

Failed to find—self-forgetfulness—came with his work

For the suffering poor in the slums of New York.

He had wandered in strange heathen countries—had been

Among barbarous hordes; but the greed and the sin

Of his own native land seemed the shame of the hour.

In his gold there was balm, in his pen there was power

To comfort the needy, to aid and defend

The unfortunate. Close in their midst, as a friend

And companion, for more than twelve months he had dwelt.

Like a ray of pure light in a cellar was felt

This strong, wholesome presence. His little room bare

Of all luxuries, taught the poor souls who flocked there

For his counsel and aid, how by mere cleanliness

The grim features of want lose some lines of distress.

The slips from the plants on his window ledge, given

To beauty starved souls, spoke more clearly of heaven

And God than did sermons or dry creedy tracts.

Maurice was no preacher; and yet his kind acts

Of mercy and self-immolation sufficed

To wake in dark minds a bright image of Christ—

The Christ often heard of, but doubted before.

Maurice spoke no word of religion. Of yore

His heart had accepted the creeds of his youth

Without pausing to cavil, or question their truth.

Faith seemed his inheritance. But, with the blow

Which slew love and killed friendship, faith, too, seemed to go.

It is easy to be optimistic in pleasure,

But when Pain stands us up by her portal to measure

The actual height of our trust and belief,

Ah! then is the time when our faith comes to grief.

The woes of our fellows, God sends them, 'tis plain;

But the devil himself is the cause of our pain.

We question the wisdom that rules o'er the world,

And our minds into chaos and darkness are hurled.

The average scoffer at faith goes about

Pouring into the ears of his fellows each doubt

Which assails him. One truth he fails wholly to heed;

That a doubt oft repeated may bore like a creed.

Maurice kept his thoughts to himself, but his pen

Was dipped in the gall of his heart now and then,

And his muse was the mouthpiece. The sin unforgiven

I hold by the Cherubim chanting in heaven

Is the sin of the poet who dares sing a strain

Which adds to the world's awful chorus of pain

And repinings. The souls whom the gods bless at birth

With the great gift of song, have been sent to the earth

To better and brighten it. Woe to the heart

Which lets its own sorrow embitter its art.

Unto him shall more sorrow be given; and life

After life filled with sorrow, till, spent with the strife,

He shall cease from rebellion, and bow to the rod

In submission, and own and acknowledge his God.

Maurice, with his unwilling muse in the gloom

Of a mood pessimistic, was shut in his room.

A whistle, a step on the stairway, a knock,

Then over the transom there fluttered a flock

Of white letters. The Muse, with a sigh of content,

Left the poet to read them, and hurriedly went

Back to pleasanter regions. Maurice glanced them through:

There were brief business epistles from two

Daily papers, soliciting work from his pen;

A woman begged money for Christ's sake; three men

Asked employment; a mother wrote only to say

How she blessed him and prayed God to bless him each day

For his kindness to her and to hers; and the last

Was a letter from Ruth. The pale ghost of the past

Rose out of its poor shallow grave, with the scent

And the mold of the clay clinging to it, and leant

O'er Maurice as he read, while its breath fanned his cheek.

"Forgive me," wrote Ruth; "for at last I must speak

Of the two whom you wish to forget. Well I know

How you suffered, still suffer, from fate's sudden blow,

Though I am a woman, and women must stay

And fight out pain's battles where men run away.

But my strength has its limit, my courage its end,

The time has now come when I, too, leave Bay Bend.

Maurice, let the bitterness housed in your heart

For the man you long loved as a comrade, depart,

And let pity replace it. Oh, weep for his sorrow—

From your fountain of grief, held in check, let me borrow;

I have so overdrawn on the bank of my tears

That my anguish is now refused payment. For years

You loved Mabel Lee. Well, to some hearts love speaks

His whole tale of passion in brief little weeks.

As Minerva, full grown, from the great brow of Jove

Sprang to life, so full blown from our breasts may spring Love.

Love hid like a bee in my heart's lily cup;

I knew not he was there till his sting woke me up.

Maurice, oh, Maurice! Can you fancy the woe

Of seeing the prize which you coveted so

Misused, or abused, by another? The wife

Of the man whom I worshiped is spoiling the life

That was wax in her hands, wax to shape as she chose.

You were blind to her faults, so was Roger Montrose.

Both saw but the saint; well, let saints keep their places,

And not crowd the women in life's hurried races.

As saint, Mabel Lee might succeed; but, oh brother,

She never was meant for a wife or a mother.

Her beautiful home has the desolate air

Of a house that is ruled by its servants. The care—

The thought of the woman (that sweet, subtle power

Pervading some rooms like the scent of a flower),

Which turns house into home—that is lacking. She goes

On her merciful rounds, does our Lady Montrose,

Looking after the souls of the heathen, and leaving

The poor hungry soul of her lord to its grieving.

He craves her companionship; wants her to be

At his side, more his own, than the public's. But she

Holds such love is but selfish; and thinks he should make

Some sacrifice gladly for charity's sake.

Her schools, and her clubs, and her fairs fill her time;

He wants her to travel; no, that were a crime

To go seeking for pleasure, and leave duty here.

God had given her work and her labor lay near.

A month of the theater season in town?

No, the stage is an evil that needs putting down

By good people. So, scheme as he will, the poor man

Has to finally yield every project and plan

To this sweet stubborn saint; for the husband, you see,

Stands last in her thoughts. He has come, after three

Patient years, to that knowledge; his wishes, his needs

Must always give way to her whims, or her creeds.

She knows not the primer of loving; her soul

Is engrossed with the poor petty wish to control,

And she chafes at restriction. Love loves to be bound,

And its sweetest of freedom in bondage is found.

She pulls at her fetters. One worshiping heart

And its faithful devotion play but a small part

In her life. She would rather be lauded and praised

By a crowd of inferior followers, raised

To the pitiful height of their leader, than be

One man's goddess. There, now, is the true Mabel Lee!

Grieve not that you lost her, but grieve for the one

Who with me stood last night by the corpse of his son,

And with me stood alone. Ah! how wisely and well

Could Mabel descant on Maternity! tell

Other women the way to train children to be

An honor and pride to their parents! Yet she,

From the first, left her child to the nurses. She found

'Twas a tax on her nerves to have baby around

When it worried and cried. The nurse knew what to do,

And a block down the street lived Mama! 'twixt the two

Little Roger would surely be cared for. She must

Keep her strength and be worthy the love and the trust

Of the poor, who were yearly increasing, and not

Bestow on her own all the care and the thought—

That were selfishness, surely.

Well, the babe grew apace,

But yesterday morning a flush on its face

And a look in its eye worried Roger. The mother

Was due at some sort of convention or other

In Boston—I think 'twas a grand federation

Of clubs formed by women to rescue the Nation

From man's awful clutches; and Mabel was made

The head delegate of the Bay Bend Brigade.

Once drop in a small, selfish nature the seed

Of ambition for place, and it grows like a weed.

The fair village angel we called Mabel Lee,

As Mrs. Montrose, has developed, you see,

To a full fledged Reformer. It quite turned her head

To be sent to the city of beans and brown bread

As a delegate! (Delegate! magical word!

The heart of the queer modern woman is stirred

Far more by its sound than by aught she may hear

In the phrases poor Cupid pours into her ear.)

Mabel chirped to the baby a dozen good-byes,

And laughed at the trouble in Roger's grave eyes,

As she leaned o'er the lace ruffled crib of her son

And talked baby-talk: "Now be good, 'ittle one,

While Mama is away, and don't draw a long breath,

Unless 'oo would worry Papa half to death.

And don't cough, and, of all things, don't sneeze, 'ittle dear,

Or Papa will be thrown into spasms of fear.

Now, good-bye, once again, 'ittle man; mother knows

There is no other baby like Roger Montrose

In the whole world to-day."

So she left him. That night

The nurse sent a messenger speeding in fright

For the Doctor; a second for Grandmama Lee

And Roger despatched still another for me.

All in vain! through the gray chilly paths of the dawn

The soul of the beautiful baby passed on

Into Mother-filled lands.

Ah! my God, the despair

Of seeing that agonized sufferer there;

To stand by his side, yet denied the relief

Of sharing, as wife, and as mother, his grief.

Enough! I have borne all I can bear. The role

Of friend to a lover pulls hard on the soul

Of a sensitive woman. The three words in life

Which have meaning to me are home, mother and wife—

Or, rather, wife, mother and home. Once I thought

Men cared for the women who found home the spot

Next to heaven for happiness; women who knew

No ambition beyond being loyal and true,

And who loved all the tasks of the housewife. I learn,

Instead, that from women of that kind men turn,

With a yawn, unto those who are useless; who live

For the poor hollow world and for what it can give,

And who make home the spot where, when other joys cease,

One sleeps late when one wishes.

You left me Maurice

Left the home I have kept since our dear Mother died,

With such sisterly love and such housewifely pride,

And you wandered afar, and for what cause, forsooth?

Oh! because a vain, self-loving woman, in truth,

Had been faithless. The man whom I worshiped, ignored

The love and the comfort my woman's heart stored

In its depths for his taking, and sought Mabel Lee.

Well, I'm done with the role of the housewife. I see

There is nothing in being domestic. The part

Is unpicturesque, and at war with all art.

The senile old Century leers with dim eyes

At our sex and demands that we shock or surprise

His thin blood into motion. The home's not the place

To bring a pleased smile to his wicked old face.

To the mandate I bow; since all strive for that end,

I must join the great throng! I am leaving Bay Bend

This day week. I will see you in town as I pass

To the college at C—-, where I enter the class

Of medical students—I fancy you will

Like to see my name thus—Dr. Ruth Somerville."

Maurice dropped the long, closely written epistle,

Stared hard at the wall, and gave vent to a whistle.

A Doctor! his sweet, little home-loving sister.

A Doctor! one might as well prefix a Mister

To Ruth Somerville, that most feminine name.

And then in the wake of astonishment came

Keen pity for all she had suffered. "Poor Ruth,

She writes like an agonized woman, in truth,

And like one torn with jealousy. Ah, I can see,"

He mused, "how the pure soul of sweet Mabel Lee

Revolts at the bondage and shrinks from the ban

That lies in the love of that sensual man.

He is of the earth, earthy. He loves but her beauty,

He cares not for conscience, or honor or duty.

Like a moth she was dazzled and lured by the flame

Of a light she thought love, till she learned its true name;

When she found it mere passion, it lost all its charms.

No wonder she flies from his fettering arms!

God pity you, Mabel! poor ill mated wife;

But my love, like a planet, shall watch o'er your life,

Though all other light from your skies disappear,

Like a sun in the darkness my love shall appear.

Unselfish and silent, it asks no return,

But while the great firmament lasts it shall burn."

Muse, muse, awake, and sing thy loneliest strain,

Song, song, be sad with sorrow's deepest pain,

Heart, heart, bow down and never bound again,

My Lady grieves, she grieves.

Night, night, draw close thy filmy mourning veil,

Moon, moon, conceal thy beauty sweet and pale,

Wind, wind, sigh out thy most pathetic wail,

My Lady grieves, she grieves.

Time, time, speed by, thou art too slow, too slow,

Grief, grief, pass on, and take thy cup of woe,

Life, life, be kind, ah! do not wound her so,

My Lady grieves, she grieves.

Sleep, sleep, dare not to touch mine aching eyes,

Love, love, watch on, though fate thy wish denies,

Heart, heart, sigh on, since she, my Lady, sighs,

My Lady grieves, she grieves.

6

VI.

prologue

The flower breathes low to the bee,

"Behold, I am ripe with bloom.

Let Love have his way with me,

Ere I fall unwed in my tomb."

The rooted plant sighs in distress

To the winds by the garden walk

"Oh, waft me my lover's caress,

Or I shrivel and die on my stalk."

The whippoorwill utters her love

In a passionate "Come, oh come,"

To the male in the depths of the grove,

But the heart of a woman is dumb.

The lioness seeks her mate,

The she-tiger calls her own—

Who made it a woman's fate

To sit in the silence alone?

Wooed, wedded and widowed ere twenty. The life

Of Zoe Travers is told in that sentence. A wife

For one year, loved and loving; so full of life's joy

That death, growing jealous, resolved to destroy

The Eden she dwelt in. Five desolate years

She walked robed in weeds, and bathed ever in tears,

Through the valley of memory. Locked in love's tomb

Lay youth in its glory and hope in its bloom.

At times she was filled with religious devotion,

Again crushed to earth with rebellious emotion

And unresigned sorrow.

Ah, wild was her grief!

And the years seemed to bring her no balm of relief.

When a heart from its sorrow time cannot estrange,

God sends it another to alter and change

The current of feeling. Zoe's mother, her one

Tie to earth, became ill. When the doctors had done

All the harm which they dared do with powder and pill,

They ordered a trial of Dame Nature's skill.

Dear Nature! what grief in her bosom must stir

When she sees us turn everywhere save unto her

For the health she holds always in keeping; and sees

Us at last, when too late, creeping back to her knees,

Begging that she at first could have given!

'Twas so

Mother Nature's heart grieved o'er the mother of Zoe,

Who came but to die on her bosom. She died

Where the mocking bird poured out its passionate tide

Of lush music; and all through the dark days of pain

That succeeded, and over and through the refrain

Of her sorrow, Zoe heard that wild song evermore.

It seemed like a blow which pushed open a door

In her heart. Something strange, sweet and terrible stirred

In her nature, aroused by the song of that bird.

It rang like a voice from the future; a call

That came not from the past; yet the past held her all.

To the past she had plighted her vows; in the past

Lay her one dream of happiness, first, only, last.

Alone in the world now, she felt the unrest

Of an unanchored boat on the wild billow's breast.

Two homes had been shattered; the West held but tombs.

She drifted again where the magnolia blooms

And the mocking bird sings. Oh! that song, that wild strain,

Whose echoes still haunted her heart and her brain!

How she listened to hear it repeated! It came

Through the dawn to her heart, and the sound was like flame.

It chased all the shadows of night from her room,

And burst the closed bud of the day into bloom.

It leaped to the heavens, it sank to the earth

It gave life new rapture and love a new birth.

It ran through her veins like a fiery stream,

And the past and its sorrow—was only a dream.

The call of a bird in the spring for its lover

Is the voice of all Nature when winter is over.

The heart of the woman re-echoed the strain,

And its meaning, at last, to her senses was plain.

Grief's winter was over, the snows from her heart

Were melted; hope's blossoms were ready to start.

The spring had returned with its siren delights,

And her youth and emotions asserted their rights.

Then memory struggled with passion. The dead

Seemed to rise from the grave and accuse her. She fled

From her thoughts as from lepers; returned to old ways,

And strove to keep occupied, filling her days

With devotional duties. But when the night came

She heard through her slumber that song like a flame,

And her dreams were sweet torture. She sought all too soon

To chill the warm sun of her youth's ardent noon

With the shadows of premature evening. Her mind

Lacked direction and purpose. She tried in a blind,

Groping fashion to follow an early ideal

Of love and of constancy, starving the real

Affectional nature God gave her. She prayed

For God's help in unmaking the woman He made,

As if He repented the thing He had done.

With the soul of a Sappho, she lived like a nun,

Hid her thoughts from all women, from men kept apart,

And carefully guarded the book of her heart

From the world's prying eyes. Yet men read through the cover,

And knew that the story was food for a lover.

(The dullest of men seemed possessed of the art

To read what the passions inscribe on the heart.

Though written in cipher and sealed from the sight,

Yet masculine eyes will interpret aright.)

Worn out with the unceasing conflict at last,

Zoe fled from herself and her sorrowful past,

And turned to new scenes for diversion from thought.

New York! oh, what magic encircles that spot

In the feminine mind of the West! There, it seems,

Waits the realization of beautiful dreams.

There the waters of Lethe unceasingly roll,

With blessed forgetfulness free to each soul,

While the doorways that lead to success open wide,

With Fame in the distance to beckon and guide.

Mirth lurks in each byway, and Folly herself

Wears the look of a semi-respectable elf,

And is to be courted and trusted when met,

For she teaches one how to be gay and forget,

And to start new account books with life.

It was so,

Since she first heard the name of the city, that Zoe

Dreamed of life in New York. It was thither she turned

To smother the heart that with restlessness burned,

And to quiet and calm an unsatisfied mind.

Her plans were but outlines, crude, vague, undefined,

Of distraction and pleasure. A snug little home,

With seclusion and comfort; full freedom to roam

Where her fancy and income permitted; new faces,

New scenes, new environments, far from the places

Where brief joy and long sorrow had dwelt with her; free

From the curious eyes that seemed ever to be

Bent upon her. She passed like a ship from the port,

Without chart or compass; the plaything and sport

Of the billows of Fate.

The parks were all gay

And busy with costuming duties of May

When Zoe reached New York. The rain and the breeze

Had freshened the gowns of the Northern pine trees

Till they looked bright as new; all the willows were seen

In soft dainty garments of exquisite green.

Young buds swelled with life, and reached out to invite

And to hold the warm gaze of the wandering light.

The turf exhaled fragrance; among the green boughs

The unabashed city birds plighted their vows,

Or happy young house hunters chirped of the best

And most suitable nook to establish a nest.

There was love in the sunshine, and love in the air;

Youth, hope, home, companionship, spring, everywhere.

There was youth, there was spring in her blood; yet she only,

In all the great city, seemed loveless and lonely.

The trim little flat, facing north on the park,

Was not homelike; the rooms seemed too sombre and dark

To her eyes, sun-accustomed; the neighbors too near

And too noisy. The medley of sounds hurt her ear.

Sudden laughter; the cry of an infant; the splash

Of a tenant below in his bath-tub; the crash

Of strong hands on a keyboard above, and the light,

Merry voice of the lady who lived opposite,

The air intertwined in a tangled sound ball,

And flung straight at her ear through the court and the hall.

Ah, what loneliness dwelt in the rush and the stir

Of the great pushing throngs that were nothing to her,

And to whom she was nothing! Her heart, on its quest

For distraction, seemed eating itself in her breast.

She longed for a comrade, a friend. In the church

Which she frequented no one abetted her search,

For the faces of people she met in its aisle

Gazed calmly beyond her, without glance or smile.

The look in their eyes, when translated, read thus,

"We worship God here, what are people to us?"

In some masculine eyes she read more, it is true.

What she read made her gaze at the floor of her pew.

The blithe little blonde who lived over the hall,

In the opposite rooms, was the first one to call

Or to show friendly feeling. She seemed sweet and kind,

But her infantile face hid a mercantile mind.

Her voice had the timbre of metal. Each word

Clinked each word like small change in a purse; and you heard,

In the rustling silk of her skirts, just a hint

Of new bills freshly printed and right from the mint.

There was that in her airs and her chatter which made

Zoe question and ponder, and turn half afraid

From her proffers of friendship. When one July day

The fair neighbor called for a moment to say,

"I am off to Long Branch for the summer, good-bye,"

Zoe seemed to breathe freer—she scarcely knew why,

But she reasoned it out as alone in the gloom

Of the soft summer evening she sat in her room.

"The woman is happy," she said; "at the least,

Her heart is not starving in life's ample feast.

She lives while she lives, but I only exist,

And Fate laughs in my face for the things I resist."

New York in the midsummer seems like the gay

Upper servant who rules with the mistress away.

She entertains friends from all parts of the earth;

Her streets are alive with a fictitious mirth.

She flaunts her best clothes with a devil-may-care

Sort of look, and her parks wear a riotous air.

There is something unwholesome about her at dusk;

Her trees, and her gardens, seem scented with musk;

And you feel she has locked up the door of the house

And, half drunk with the heat, wanders forth to carouse,

With virtue, ambition and industry all

Packed off (moth-protected) with garments for Fall.

Zoe felt out of step with the town. In the song

Which it sang, where each note was a soul of the throng,

She seemed the one discord. Books gave no distraction.

She cared not for study, her heart longed for action,

For pleasure, excitement. Wild impulses, new

To her mind, came like demons and urged her to do

All sorts of mad things. Mischief breathed through the air.

One could do as one liked in New York—who would care—

Who would know save the God who had left her alone

In his world, unprotected, unloved? From her own

Restless mind and sick heart she attempted once more

To escape. One reads much of gay life at the shore—

Narragansett, she fancied, would suit her. The sea

Would at least prove a friend; and, perchance, there might be

Some heart, like her own, seeking comradeship there.

The days brought no friend. But the moist, salty air

Was a stimulant, giving existence new charms.

The sea was a lover who opened his arms

Every day to embrace her. And life in this place

Held something of pleasure, and sweetness and grace,

Though the eyes of the men were too ardent and bold,

And the eyes of the women suspicious and cold,

She yet had the sea—the sea, strong and mighty,

Both father and mother of fair Aphrodite.

7

VII.

Mabel grieved for her child with a sorrow sincere,

But she bowed to the will of her Maker. No tear

Came to soften the hard, stony look in the eye

Of her husband; she heard no complaint and no sigh

From his lips, but he turned with impatience whenever

She spoke of religion, or made one endeavor

To lead his thoughts up from the newly turned sod

Where the little form slept, to its spirit with God.

Long hours by that grave, Roger passed, and alone.

The woes of her neighbors his wife made her own,

But her husband she pointed to Christ; and in grief

Prayed for light to be cast on his dark unbelief.

She flung herself into good works more and more,

And saw not that the look which her husband's face wore

Was the look of a man starved for love. In the mold

Of a nun she was fashioned, chaste, passionless, cold.

(Such women sin more when they take marriage ties

Than the love-maddened creature who lawlessly lies

In the arms of the man whom she worships. The child

Not conceived in true love leaves the mother defiled.

Though an army of clergymen sanction her vows,

God sees "illegitimate" stamped on the brows

Of her offspring. Love only can legalize birth

In His eyes—all the rest is but spawn of the earth.)

Mabel Lee, as the maid, had been flattered and pleased

By the passion of Roger; his wild wooing teased

That inquisitive sense, half a fault, half a merit,

Which the daughters of Eve, to a woman, inherit.

His love fanned her love for herself to a glow;

She was stirred by the thought she could stir a man so.

That was all. She had nothing to give in return.

One can't light a fire with no fuel to burn;

And the love Roger dreamed he could rouse in her soul

Was not there to be wakened. He stood at his goal

As the Arctic explorer may finally stand,

To see all about him an ice prisoned land,

White, beautiful, useless.

Some women are chaste,

Like the snows which envelop the bleak and waste

Of the desert; once melted, alas! what remains

But the poor, unproductive, dry soil of the plains?

The flora of Cupid will never be found,

However he toil there, to thrive in such ground.

Mabel Montrose was held in the highest esteem

By her neighbors; I think neighbors everywhere deem

Such women to be all that's noble. They sighed

When they spoke of her husband; they told how she tried

To convert him, and how they had thought for a season

His mind was bent Christ-ward; and then, with no reason,

He seemed to drift back to the world, and grew jealous

Of Mabel, and thought her too faithful and zealous

In duty to others.

The death of his child

Only hardened his heart against God. He grew wild,

Took to drink; spent a week at a time in the city,

Neglecting his saint of a wife—such a pity.

It was true. Our friends keep a sharp eye on our deeds

But the fine interlining of causes—who heeds?

The long list of heartaches which lead to rash acts

Would bring pity, not blame, if the world knew the facts.

There are women so terribly free from all evil,

They discourage a man, and he goes to the devil.

There are people whose virtues result in appalling,

And they prove a great aid to his majesty's calling.

Roger's wife rendered goodness so dreary and cold,

His tendril-like will lost its poor little hold

On the new better life he was longing to reach,

And slipped back to the dust. Oh! to love, not to preach.

Is a woman's true method of helping mankind.

The sinner is won through his heart, not his mind.

As the sun loves the seed up to life through the sod,

So the patience of love brings a soul to its God.

But when love is lacking, the devil is sure

To stand in the pathway with some sort of lure.

Roger turned to the world for distraction. The world

Smiled a welcome, and then like an octopus curled

All its tentacles 'round him, and dragged him away

Into deep, troubled waters.

One late summer day

He awoke with a headache, which will not surprise,

When you know that his bedtime had been at sunrise,

And that gay Narraganset, the world renowned "Pier,"

Was the scene. Through the lace curtained window the clear

Yellow rays of the hot August sun touched his bed

And proclaimed it was mid-day. He rose, and his head

Seemed as large and as light as an air filled balloon

While his limbs were like lead.

In the glare of the noon,

The follies of night show their makeup, and seem

Like hideous monsters evoked by some dream.

The sea called to Roger: "Come, lie on my breast

And forget the dull world. My unrest shall give rest

To your turbulent feelings; the dregs of the wine

On your lips shall be lost in the salt touch of mine.

Come away, come away. Ah! the jubilant mirth

Of the sea is not known by the stupid old earth."

The beach swarmed with bathers—to be more exact,

Swarmed with people in costumes of bathers. In fact,

Many beautiful women bathed but in the light

Of men's eyes; and their costumes were made for the sight,

Not the sea. From the sea's lusty outreaching arms

They escaped with shrill shrieks, while the men viewed their charms

And made mental notes of them. Yet, at this hour,

The waves, too, were swelling sea meadows, a-flower

With faces of swimmers. All dressed for his bath,

Roger paused in confusion, because in his path

Surged a crowd of the curious; all eyes were bent

On the form of a woman who leisurely went

From her bathing house down to the beach. "There she goes,"

Roger heard a dame cry, as she stepped on his toes

With her whole ample weight. "What, the one with red hair?

Why, she isn't as pretty as Maude, I declare."

A man passing by with his comrade, cried: "Ned,

Look! there is La Travers, the one with the red

Braid of hair to her knees. She's a mystery here,

And at present the topic of talk at the Pier."

Roger followed their glances in time to behold

For a second a head crowned with braids of bright gold,

And a form like a Venus, all costumed in white.

Then she plunged through a billow and vanished from sight.

It was half an hour afterward, possibly more,

As Roger swam farther and farther from shore,

With new life in his limbs and new force in his brain,

That he heard, just behind him, a sharp cry of pain.

Ten strokes in the rear on the crest of a wave

Shone a woman's white face. "Keep your courage; be brave;

I am coming," he shouted. "Turn over and float."

His strong shoulder plunged like the prow of a boat

Through the billows. Six overhand strokes brought him close

To the woman, who lay like a wilted white rose

On the waves. "Now, be careful," he cried; "lay your hand

Well up on my shoulder; my arms, understand,

Must be free; do not touch them—please follow my wishes,

Unless you are anxious to fatten the fishes."

The woman obeyed him. "You need not fear me,"

She replied, "I am wholly at home in the sea.

I knew all the arts of the swimmer, I thought,

But confess I was frightened when suddenly caught

With a cramp in my knee at this distance from shore."

With slow even breast strokes the strong swimmer bore

His fair burden landward. She lay on the billows

As lightly as if she were resting on pillows

Of down. She relinquished herself to the sea

And the man, and was saved; though God knows both can be

False and fickle enough; yet resistance or strife,

On occasions like this, means the forfeit of life.

The throng of the bathers had scattered before

Roger carried his burden safe into the shore

And saw her emerge from the water, a place

Where most women lose every vestige of grace

Or of charm. But this mermaid seemed fairer than when

She had challenged the glances of women and men

As she went to her bath. Now her clinging silk suit

Revealed every line, from the throat to the foot,

Of her beautiful form. Her arms, in their splendor,

Gleamed white like wet marble. The round waist was slender,

And yet not too small. From the twin perfect crests

And the virginlike grace of her beautiful breasts

To the exquisite limbs and the curve of her thigh,

And the arch of her proud little instep, the eye

Drank in beauty. Her face was not beautiful; yet

The gaze lingered on it, for Eros had set

His seal on her features. The mouth full and weak,

The blue shadow drooping from eyelid to cheek

Like a stain of crushed grapes, and the pale, ardent skin,

All spoke of volcanic emotions within.

By her tip tilted nose and low brow, it was plain

To read how her impulses ruled o'er her brain.

She had given the chief role of life to her heart,

And her intellect played but a small minor part.

Her eyes were the color the sunlight reveals

When it pierces the soft, furry coat of young seals.

The thickly fringed lids seemed unwilling to rise,

But drooped, half concealing them; wonderful eyes,

Full of secrets and bodings of sorrow. As coarse

And as thick as the mane of a finely groomed horse

Was her bright mass of hair. The sea, with rough hands,

Had made free with the braids, and unloosened the strands

Till they hung in great clusters of curls to her knees.

Her voice, when she spoke, held the breadth and the breeze

Of the West in its tones; and the use of the R

Made the listener certain her home had been far

From New England. Long after she vanished from view

The eye and the ear seemed to sense her anew.

There was that in her voice and her presence which hung

In the air like a strain of a song which is sung

By a singer, and then sings itself the whole day,

And will not be silenced.

As birds flock away

From meadow to tree branch, now there and now here,

So, from beach to Casino, each day at the Pier

Flock the gay pleasure seekers. The balconies glow

With beauty and color. The belle and the beau

Promenade in the sunlight, or sit tete-a-tete,

While the chaperons gossip together. Bands play,

Glasses clink; and 'neath sheltering lace parasols

There are plans made for meeting at drives or at balls.

Roger sat at a table alone, with his glass

Of mint julep before him, and watched the crowd pass.

There were all sorts of people from all sorts of places.

He thought he liked best the fair Baltimore faces.

The South was the land of fair women, he mused,

Because they were indolent. Women who used

Mind or body too freely. Changed curves into angles,

For beauty forever with intellect wrangles.

The trend of the fair sex to-day must alarm

Every lover of feminine beauty and charm.

As he mused Roger watched with a keen interest

For a sight of his Undine. "All coiffured and drest,

With her wonderful body concealed, and her hair

Knotted up, well, I doubt if she seem even fair,"

He soliloquized. "Ah!" the word burst from his lips,

For he saw her approaching. She walked from the hips

With an undulous motion. As graceful and free

From all effort as waves swinging in from the sea

Were her movements. Her full molded figure seemed slight

In its close fitting gown of black cloth; and the white

Of her cheek seemed still whiter by contrast. Her clothes

Were tasteful and quiet; yet Roger Montrose

Knew in some subtle manner he could not express

('Tis an instinct men have in the matters of dress)

That they never were made in New York. By her hat

One can oft read a woman's whole character. That

Which our fair Undine wore was a thing of rich lace,

Flowers and ribbons like others one saw in the place,

Yet the width of the brim, or the twist of its bows,

Or the way it was worn made it different from those.

As it drooped o'er the eyes full of mystery there,

It seemed, all at once, both a menace and dare;

A menace to women, a dare to the men.

She bowed as she passed Roger's table; and then

Took a chair opposite, spread her shade of red silk,

Called a waiter and ordered a cup of hot milk,

Which she leisurely sipped. She seemed unaware

Of the curious eyes she attracted. Her air

Was of one quite at home, and entirely at ease

With herself, the sole person she studied to please.

She had been for three weeks at the Pier, and alone,

Without maid or escort, and nothing was known

Of her there, save the name which the register bore,

"Mrs. Travers, New York." Men were mad to learn more

But the women were distant. One can't, at such places,

Accept as credentials good figures or faces.

There was an unnameable something about

Mrs. Travers which filled other women with doubt

And all men with interest. Roger, blasé,

Disillusioned with life as he was, felt the sway

Of her strong personality, there as she sat

Looking out 'neath the rim of her coquettish hat

With dark eyes on the sea. Few people had power

To draw his gray thoughts from himself for an hour

As this woman had done; she was food for his mind,

And he sought by his inner perceptions to find

In what class she belonged. "An adventuress? No,

Though I fancy three-fourths of the women think so

And one-half of the men; but that role leaves a trace,

An expression, I fail to detect in her face.

Her past is not shadowed; my judgment would say

That her sins lie before her, and not far away.

She's a puzzle, I think, to herself; and grim Fate

Will aid her in solving the riddle too late.

Her soul dreams of happiness; but in her eyes

The sensuous foe to all happiness lies.

As the rain is drawn up by some moods of the sun,

Some natures draw trouble from life; her's is one."

She rose and passed by him again, and her gown

Brushed his knee. A light tremor went shivering down

His whole body. She left on the air as she went

A subtle suggestion of perfume; the scent

Which steals out of some fans, or old laces, and seems

Full of soft fragrant fancies and languorous dreams.

She haunted the mind, though she passed from the sight.

When Roger Montrose sought his pillow that night,

'Twas to dream of La Travers. He thought she became

A burning red rose, with each leaf like a flame.

He stooped down and plucked it, and woke with a start,

As it turned to an adder and struck at his heart.

The dream left its impress, as certain dreams should,

For, as warnings of evil, precursors of good,

They are sent to our souls o'er a mystical line,

Night messages, couched in a cipher divine.

Roger knew much of life, much of women, and knew

Even more of himself and his weaknesses. Few

Of us mortals look inward; our gaze is turned out

To watch what the rest of the world is about,

While the rest of the world watches us.

Roger's reason

And logic were clear. But his will played him treason.

If you looked at his hand, you would see it. Hands speak

More than faces. His thumb (the first phalanx) was weak,

Undeveloped; the second, firm jointed and long,

Which showed that the reasoning powers were strong,

But the will, from disuse, had grown feeble.

That morning

He looked on his dream in the light of a warning

And made sudden plans for departure. "To go

Is to fly from some folly," he said, "for I know

What salt air and dry wine, and the soft siren eyes

Of a woman, can do under midsummer skies

With a man who is wretched as I am. Unrest

Is a tramp, who goes picking the locks on one's breast

That a whole gang of vices may enter. A thirst

For strong drink and chance games, those twin comrades accursed,

Are already admitted. Oh Mabel, my wife,

Reach, reach out your arms, draw me into the life

That alone is worth living. I need you to-day,

Have pity, and love me, oh love me, I pray.

I will turn once again from the bad world to you.

Though false to myself, to my vows I am true."

When a soul strives to pull itself up out of sin

The devil tries harder to push it back in.

And the man who attempts to retrace the wrong track

Needs his God and his will to stand close at his back.

Through what are called accidents, Roger was late

At the train. Are not accidents servants of Fate?

The first coach was filled; he passed on to the second.

That, too, seemed complete, but a gentleman beckoned

And said, "There's a seat, sir; the third from the last

On your left." Roger thanked him and leisurely passed

Down the aisle, with his coat on his arm, to the place

Indicated. The seat held a lady, whose face

Was turned to the window. "Pray pardon me, miss"

(For he judged by her back she was youthful), "is this

Seat engaged?" As he spoke, the face turned in surprise,

And Roger looked into the long, languid eyes

Of La Travers. She smiled, moved her wraps from the seat,

And he sat down beside her. The same subtle, sweet

Breath of perfume exhaled from her presence, and made

The place seem a boudoir. The deep winey shade

'Neath her eyes had grown larger, as if she had wept

Or a late, lonely vigil with memory kept.

A man who has rescued a woman from danger

Or death, does not seem to her wholly a stranger

When next she encounters him; yet both essayed

To be formal and proper; and each of them made

The effort a failure. The jar of a train

At times holds a mesmeric spell for the brain

And a tense excitation for nerves; and the shriek

Of the engine compels one to lean near to speak

Or to list to his neighbor. Formality flies

With the smoke of the train and floats off to the skies.

Roger led his companion to talk; and the theme

Which he chose, was herself, her life story. The dream

Of the previous night was forgotten. The charm

Of the woman outweighed superstitious alarm.

When the sunlight began to play peek-a-boo

Through the tunnels, which told them the journey was through,

Roger looked at his time-piece; the train for Bay Bend

Left in just twenty minutes; but what a rude end

To the day's pleasant comradeship—rushing away

With a hurried good-bye! He decided to stay

Over night in the city. He was not expected

At home. Mrs. Travers was quite unprotected,

And almost a stranger in Gotham. He ought

To see her safe into her doorway, he thought.

At the doorway she gave him her hand, with a smile;

"I have known you," she said, "such a brief little while,

Yet you seem like a friend of long standing; I say

Good-bye with reluctance."

"Perhaps, then, I may

Call and see you to-morrow?" the words seemed to fall

Of themselves from his lips; words he longed to recall

When once uttered, for deep in his conscience he knew

That the one word for him to speak now, was adieu.

The lady's soft, cushion-like hand rested still

In his own, and the contact was pleasant. A thrill

From the finger tips quickened his pulses.

"You may

Call to-morrow at four." The soft hand slipped away

And left his palm lonely.

"The call must be brief,"

He said to himself, with a sense of relief,

As he ran down the steps, "for at five my train goes."

Yet the five o'clock train bore no Roger Montrose

From New York. Mrs. Travers had asked him to dine.

A tete-a-tete dinner with beauty and wine,

To stir the man's senses and deaden his brain.

(The devil keeps always good chefs in his train.)

It was ten when he rose for departure. The room

Seemed a garden of midsummer fragrance and bloom.

The lights with their soft rosy coverings made

A glow like late sunsets, in some tropic glade.

The world seemed afar, with its dullness and duty,

And life was a rapture of love and of beauty.

God knows how it happened; they never knew how.

He turned with a formal conventional bow,

And some well chosen words of politeness, to go.

Her mouth was a rose Love had dropped in the snow

Of her face. It smiled up to him, luscious and sweet.

In the tip of each finger he felt his heart beat,

Like five hearts all in one, as her hand touched his own.

She murmured "good-night," in a tremulous tone.

White, intense, through the soft golden mist which the wine

Had cast over his vision, he saw her face shine.

Her low lidded eyes held a lion-like glow.

You have seen sudden storms lash the ocean? You know

How the cyclone, unheralded, rises in wrath,

And leaves devastation and death in its path?

So swift, sudden passion may rise in its power,

And ruin and blight a whole life in an hour.

Two unanchored souls in its maelstrom were whirled,

Drawn down by love's undertow, lost to the world.

The dark, solemn billows of night shut them in.

Like corpses afloat on the ocean of sin

They must seem to their true, better selves, when again

The tide drifts them back to the notice of men.

8

VIII.

prologue

Forget me, dear; forget and cease to love me,

I am not worth one memory, kind or true,

Let silent, pale Oblivion spread above me

Her winding sheet, for I am dead to you.

Forget, forget.

Sin has resumed its interrupted story;

I am enslaved, who dreamed of being free.

Say for my soul, in life's dark purgatory,

One little prayer, then cease to think of me.

Forget, forget.

I ask you not to pity or to pardon;

I ask you to forget me. Tear my name

From out your heart; the wound will heal and harden.

Death does not dig so deep a grave as shame.

Forget, forget.

Roger's Letter to Mabel.

Farewell! I shall never again seek your side;

I will stay with my sins and leave you with your pride.

Let the swift flame of scorn dry the tears of regret,

Shut me out of your life, lock the door and forget.

I shall pass from your skies as a vagabond star

Passes out of the great solar system afar

Into blackness and gloom; while the heavens smile on,

Scarce knowing the poor erring creature is gone.

Say a prayer for the soul sunk in sinning; I die

To you, and to all who have known me. Good-bye.

Mabel's Letter to Maurice.

I break through the silence of years, my old friend,

To beg for a favor; oh, grant it! I send

Roger's letter in confidence to you, and ask,

In the name of our sweet early friendship, a task,

Which, however painful, I pray you perform.

Poor Roger! his bark is adrift in the storm.

He has veered from the course; with no compass of faith

To point to the harbor, he goes to his death.

You are giving your talents and time, I am told,

To aiding the poor; let this victim of gold

Be included. His life has not learned self-control,

And luxury stunted the growth of his soul.

In blindness of spirit he took the wrong track,

But he sees his great error and longs to come back.

Oh, help me to reach him and save him, Maurice.

My heart yearns to show him the infinite peace

Found but in God's love. Let us pity, forgive

And help him, dear friend, to seek Christ and to live

In the light of His mercy. I know you will do

What I ask, you were ever so loyal and true.

Maurice to Mabel.

Though bitter the task (why, your heart must well know),

Your wish shall be ever my pleasure. I go

On the search for the prodigal. Not for his sake,

But because you have asked me, I willingly make

This effort to find him. Sometimes, I contend,

It is kinder to let a soul speed to the end

Of its swift downward course than to check it to-day,

But to see it to-morrow pursue the same way.

The man who could wantonly stray from your side

Into folly and sin has abandoned all pride.

There is little to hope from him. Yet, since his name

Is the name you now bear, I will save him from shame,

God permitting. To serve and obey you is still

Held an honor, Madame, by Maurice Somerville.

Maurice to Mabel Ten Days Later.

The search for your husband is finished. Oh, pray

Tear all love and all hope from your heart ere I say

What I must say. The man has insulted your trust;

He has dragged the most sacred of ties in the dust,

And ruined the fame of a woman who wore,

Until now, a good name. He has gone. Close the door

Of your heart in his face if he seeks to come back.

The sleuth hounds of justice were put on his track,

And his life since he left you lies bare to my gaze.

He sailed yesterday on the "Paris." For days

Preceding the journey he lived as the guest

Of one Mrs. Zoe Travers, who comes from the West!

A widow, young, fair, well-connected. I hear

He followed her back to New York from the Pier,

And now he has taken the woman abroad.

My letter sounds brutal and harsh. Would to God

I might soften the facts in some measure; but no,

In matters like this the one thing is to know

The whole truth, and at once. Though the pain be intense

It pulls less on the soul than the pangs of suspense.

Like a surgeon of fate, with my pen for a knife,

I cut out false hopes which endanger your life.

Let the law, like a nurse, cleanse the wound—there is shame

And disgrace for you now in the man's very name.

Though justice is blindfolded, yet she can hear

When the chink of gold dollars sounds close in her ear.

One needs but to give her this musical hint

To save you the sight of your sorrows in print.

Closed doors, private hearing; a sentence or two

In the journals; then dignified freedom for you.

When love, truth and loyalty vanish, the tie

Which binds man to woman is only a lie.

Undo it! remember at all times I stand

As a friend to rely on—a serf to command.

Some women there are who would willingly barter

A queen's diadem for the crown of a martyr.

They want to be pitied, not envied. To know

That the world feels compassion makes joy of their woe;

And the keenest delight in their misery lies,

If only their friends will look on with wet eyes.

In fact, 'tis the prevalent weakness, I find,

Of the sex. As a mass, women seem disinclined

To be thought of as happy; they like you to feel

That their bright smiling faces are masks which conceal

A dead hope in their hearts. The strange fancy clings

To the mind of the world that the rarest of things—

Contentment—is commonplace; and, that to shine

As something superior, one must repine,

Or seem to be hiding an ache in the breast.

Yet the commonest thing in the world is unrest,

If you want to be really unique, go along

And act as if Fate had not done you a wrong,

And declare you have had your deserts in this life.

The part of the patient, neglected young wife

Contained its attractions for Mabel Montrose.

She was one of the women who live but to pose

In the eyes of their friends; and she so loved her art

That she really believed she was living the part.

The suffering martyr who makes no complaint

Was a role more important, by far, than the saint

Or reformer. As first leading lady in grief,

Her pride in herself found a certain relief.

The ardent and love-selfish husband had not

Been so dear to her heart, or so close to her thought,

As this weak, reckless sinner, who woke in her soul

Its dominant wish—to reform and control.

(How often, alas, the reformers of earth,

If they studied their purpose, would find it had birth

In this thirst to control; in the poor human passion

The minds and the manners of others to fashion!

We sigh o'er the heathen, we weep o'er his woes,

While forcing him into our creeds and our clothes.

If he adds our diseases and vices as well,

Still, at least we have guided him into our hell

And away from his own heathen hades. The pleasure

Derived from that thought but reformers can measure.)

The thing Mabel Montrose loved best on this earth

Was a sinner, and Roger but doubled his worth

In her eyes when he wrote her that letter. And still

When the last message came from Maurice Somerville

And the bald, ugly facts, unsuspected, unguessed,

Lay before her, the woman awoke in her breast,

And the patient reformer gave way to the wife,

Who was torn with resentment and jealousy's strife.

Ah, jealousy! vain is the effort to prove

Your right in the world as the offspring of love;

For oftener far, you are spawned by a heart

Where Cupid has never implanted a dart.

Love knows you, indeed, for you serve in his train,

But crowned like a monarch you royally reign

Over souls wherein love is a stranger.

No thought

Came to Mabel Montrose that her own life was not

Free from blame. (How few women, indeed, think of this

When they grieve o'er the ruin of marital bliss!)

She was shocked and indignant. Pain gave her a new

Role to play without study; she missed in her cue

And played badly at first, was resentful and cried

Against Fate for the blow it had dealt to her pride

(Though she called it her love), and declared her life blighted.

It is one thing, of course, for a wife to be slighted

For the average folly the world calls a sin,

Such as races, clubs, games; when a woman steps in

The matter assumes a new color, and Mabel,

Who dearly loved sinners, at first seemed unable

To pardon, or ask God to pardon, the crime

Of her husband; an angry disgust for a time

Drove all charity out of her heart. For a thief,

For a forger, a murderer, even, her grief

Had been mingled with pity and pardon; the one

Thing she could not forgive was the thing he had done.

It was wicked, indecent, and so unrefined.

To the lure of the senses her nature was blind,

And her mantle of charity never had been

Wide enough to quite cover that one vulgar sin.

In the letter she sent to Maurice, though she said

Little more than her thanks for his kindness, he read

All her tense nervous feelings between its few lines.

Though we study our words, the keen reader divines

What we thought while we penned them; thought odors reveal

What words not infrequently seek to conceal.

Maurice read the grief, the resentment, the shame

Which Mabel's heart held; to his own bosom came

Stealing back, masked demurely as friendly regard,

The hope of a lover—that hope long debarred.

His letters grew frequent; their tone, dignified,

Unselfish, and manly, appealed to her pride.

Sweet sympathy mingled with praise in each line

(As a gentle narcotic is stirred into wine),

Soothed pain, stimulated self love, and restored her

The pleasure of knowing the man still adored her.

Understand, Mabel Montrose was not a coquette,

She lacked all the arts of the temptress; and yet

She was young, she was feminine; love to her mind

Was extreme admiration; it pleased her to find

She was still, to Maurice, an ideal. A woman

Must be quite unselfish, almost superhuman,

And full of strong sympathy, who, in her soul,

Feels no wrench when she knows she has lost all control

O'er the heart of a man who once loved her.

Months passed,

And Mabel accepted her burden at last

And went back to her world and its duties. Her eyes

Seemed to say when she looked at you, "please sympathize,

On the slight graceful form or the beautiful face.

'Twas a sorrow of mind, not a sorrow of heart,

And the two play a wholly dissimilar part

In the life of a woman.

Maurice Somerville

Kept his place as good friend through sheer force of his will.

But his heart was in tumult; he longed for the time

When, free once again from the legalized crime

Of her ties, she might listen to all he would say.

There was anguish, and doubt, and suspense in delay,

Yet Mabel spoke never of freedom. At length

He wrote her, "My will has exhausted its strength.

Read the song I enclose; though my lips must be mute,

The muse may at least improvise to her lute."

Song.

There was a bird as blithe as free,

(Summer and sun and song)

She sang by the shores of a laughing sea,

And oh, but the world seemed fair to me,

And the days were sweet and long.

There was a hunter, a hunter bold,

(Autumn and storm and sea)

And he prisoned the bird in a cage of gold,

And oh, but the world grew dark and cold,

And the days were sad to me.

The hunter has gone; ah, what cares he?

(Winter and wind and rain)

And the caged bird pines for the air and the sea,

And I long for the right to set her free

To sing in the sun again.

The hunter has gone with a sneer at fate,

(Spring and the sea and the sun)

Let the bird fly free to find her mate,

Ere the year of love grow sere and late.

Sweet ladye, my song is done.

Mabel's Letter to Maurice.

To the song of your muse I have listened. Oh, cease

To think of me but as a friend, dear Maurice.

Once a wife, a wife alway. I vowed from my heart,

"For better, for worse, until death do us part."

No mention was made in the service that day

Of breaking my fetters if joy flew away.

"For better, for worse," a vow lightly spoken,

When Fate brings the "worse," how lightly 'tis broken!

The "worse," in my case, is the worst fate can give.

Tho' I shrank from the blow, I must bear it and live,

Not for self, but for duty; nor strive to evade

Fulfilling the promise I willingly made.

While Roger has sinned, and his sinning would be,

In the eyes of the law, proof to render me free,

It was God heard my vows and the Church sealed the bond.

Until one of us passes to death's dim beyond,

Though seas and though sins may divide us for life,

We are bound to each other as husband and wife.

In God's Court of Justice divorce is a word

Which falls without import or meaning when heard;

And the women who cast off old fetters that way,

To give place to the new, on the great Judgment Day

Must find, in the last summing up, that they stand

Side by side, in God's eyes, with the Magdalene band.

Dear Maurice, be my brother, my counselor, friend.

We are lonely without you and Ruth, at Bay Bend.

Come sometimes and brighten our lives; put away

The thoughts which are making you restless today

And give me your strong noble friendship; indeed

'Tis a friend that I crave, not a lover I need.

Maurice to Mabel.

You write like a woman, and one, it is plain,

Whose sentiment hangs like a cloud o'er her brain.

You gaze through a sort of traditional mist,

And behold a mirage of God's laws which exist

But in fancy. God made but one law—it is love.

A law for the earth, and the kingdoms above,

A law for the woman, a law for the man,

The base and the spire of His intricate plan

Of existence. All evils the world ever saw

Had birth in man's breaking away from this law.

God cancels a marriage when love flies away.

"Till death do us part" should be altered to say,

"Till disgust or indifference part us." I know

You never loved Roger, my heart tells me so.

He won you, I claim, through a mesmeric spell;

You dreamed of an Eden, and wakened in hell.

You pitied his weakness, you struggled to save him,

He paid with a crime the devotion you gave him.

And the blackest of insults relentlessly hurled

At your poor patient heart in the gaze of the world.

In God's mighty ledger the stroke of a pen

Has been drawn through your record of marriage. Though men

Call you wedded I hold you are widowed. Why cling

To the poor, empty, meaningless form of a thing—

To the letter, devoid of all spirit? God never

Intended a woman to hopelessly sever

Herself from all possible joy, or to make

True faithfulness suffer for faithlessness' sake.

When I think of your wrongs, when I think of my woes,

That black word divorce like a bright planet glows

In the skies of the future. Oh, Mabel, be fair

To yourself and to me. For the years of despair

I have suffered you owe me some recompense, surely.

The heart that has worshipped so long and so purely

Ought not to be slighted for mere sentiment.

We must live as our century bids us. Its bent

Is away from the worn ruts of thought. Where of old

The life of a woman was run in the mold

Of man's wishes and passions, to-day she is free;

Free to think and to act; free to do and to be

What she pleases. The poor, pining victim of fate

And man's cruelty, long ago went out of date.

In the mansion of Life there were some things askew,

Which the strong hand of Progress has righted. The new,

Better plan puts old notions of sex on the shelf.

Who is true to a knave, is untrue to herself.

Oh, be true to yourself, and have pity on one

Who has long dwelt in shadow and pines for the sun.

Love, starving on memories, begs for one taste

Of sweet hope, ere the remnant of youth goes to waste.

You write like a man who sees self as his goal.

You speak of your woes—yet my travail of soul

Seems mere sentiment to you. Maurice, pause and think

Of the black, bitter potion life gave me to drink

When I dreamed of love's nectar. Too fresh is the taste

Of its gall on my lip for my heart in such haste

To reach out for the cup that is proffered anew.

A certain respect to my sorrows is due.

I am weary of love as men know it. The calm

Of a sweet, tranquil friendship would act like a balm

On the wounds of my heart; that platonic regard,

Which we read of in books, or hear sung by the bard,

But so seldom can find when we want it. I thought,

For a time, you had conquered mere self, and had brought

Such a friendship to comfort and rest me. But no,

That dream, like full many another, must go.

The love that is based on attraction of sex

Is a love that has brought me but sorrow. Why vex

My poor soul with the same thing again? If you love

With a higher emotion, you know how to prove

And sustain the assertion by conduct. Maurice,

Love must rise above passion, to infinite peace

And serenity, ere it is love, to my mind.

For the women of earth, in the ranks of mankind

There are too many lovers and not enough friends.

'Tis the friend who protects, 'tis the lover who rends.

He who can be a friend while he would be a lover

Is the rarest and greatest of souls to discover.

Have I found, dear Maurice, such a treasure in you?

If not, I must say with this letter—adieu.

As he finished the letter there seemed but one phrase

To the heart of the reader. It shone on his gaze

Bright with promise and hope. "Too fresh is the taste

Of its gall on my lip for my heart in such haste

To reach out for the cup that is offered anew."

"In such haste." Ah, how hope into certainty grew

As he read and re-read that one sentence. "Let fate

Take the whole thing in charge, I can wait—I can wait.

I have lived through the night; though the dawn may be gray

And belated, it heralds the coming of day."

So he talked with himself, and grew happy at last.

The five hopeless years of his sorrow were cast

Like a nightmare behind him. He walked once again

With a joy in his personal life, among men.

There seemed to be always a smile on his lip,

For he felt like a man on the deck of a ship

Who has sailed through strange seas with a mutinous crew,

And now in the distance sights land just in view.

The house at Bay Bend was re-opened. Once more,

Where the waves of the Sound wash the New England shore,

Walked Maurice; and beside him, young hope, with the tip

Of his fair rosy fingers pressed hard on his lip,

Urging silence. If Mabel Montrose saw the boy

With the pursed prudent mouth and the eyes full of joy

She said nothing. Grave, dignified (Ah, but so fair!),

There was naught in her modest and womanly air

To feed or encourage such hope. Yet love grew

Like an air plant, with only the night and the dew

To sustain it; while Mabel rejoiced in the friend,

Who, in spite of himself, had come back to Bay Bend,

Yielding all to her wishes. Such people, alone,

Who gracefully gave up their plans for her own,

Were congenial to Mabel. Though looking the sweet,

Fragile creature, with feminine virtues replete,

Her nature was stubborn. Beneath that fair brow

Lurked an obstinate purpose to make others bow

To herself in small matters. She fully believed

She was right, always right; and her friends were deceived,

As a rule, into thinking the same; for her eyes

Held a look of such innocent grief and surprise

When her will was opposed, that one felt her misused,

And retired from the field of dispute, self-accused.

The days, like glad children, went hurrying out

From the schoolhouse of time; months pursued the same route

More sedately; a year, then two years, passed away,

Yet hope, unimpaired, in the lover's heart lay,

As a gem in the bed of a river might lie,

Unharmed and unmoved while its waters ran by.

His toil for the poor still continued, but not

With that fervor of zeal which a dominant thought

Lends to labor. Fair love gilded dreams filled his mind,

While the corners were left for his suffering kind.

He was sorry for sorrow; but love made him glad,

And nothing in life now seemed hopeless or sad.

His tete-a-tete visits with Mabel were rare;

She ordered her life with such prudence and care

Lest her white name be soiled by the gossips. And yet,

Though his heart, like a steed checked too closely, would fret

Sometimes at these creed-imposed fetters, he felt

Keen delight in her nearness; in knowing she dwelt

Within view of his high turret window. Each day

Which gave him a glimpse of her, love laid away

As a poem in life's precious folio. Night

Held her face like a picture, dream-framed for his sight.

So he fed on the crumbs from love's table, the while

Fate sat looking on with a cynical smile.

IX

SONGS FROM THE TURRET.

I

In the day my thoughts are tender

When I muse on my ladye fair.

There is never one to offend her,

For each is pure as a prayer.

They float like spirits above her,

About her and always near;

And they scarce dare sigh that they love her,

Because she would blush to hear.

But in dreams my thoughts grow bolder;

And close to my lips of fire,

I reach out my arms and enfold her,

My ladye, my heart's desire.

And she who, in earthly places,

Seems cold as the stars above,

Unmasks in those fair dream spaces

And gives me love for love.

On day, with your thoughts of duty

Cross over the sunset streams,

And give me the night of beauty

And love in the Land of Dreams.

For there in the mystic, shady,

Fair isle of the Slumber Sea,

I read the heart of my ladye

That here she hides from me.

II

Some day, some beauteous day,

Joy will come back again.

Sorrow must fly away.

Hope, on her harp will play

The old inspiring strain

Some day, some beauteous day.

Through the long hours I say,

"The night must fade and wane,

Sorrow must fly away."

The morn's bewildering ray

Shall pierce the night of rain,

Some day, some beauteous day.

Autumn shall bloom like May,

Delight shall spring from pain;

Sorrow must fly away.

Though on my life, grief's gray

Bleak shadow long hath lain,

Some day, some beauteous day,

Sorrow must fly away.

III

When love is lost, the day sets toward the night.

Albeit the morning sun may still be bright,

And not one cloud ship sails across the sky.

Yet from the places where it used to lie,

Gone is the lustrous glory of the light.

No splendor rests on any mountain height,

No scene spreads fair, and beauteous, to the sight.

All, all seems dull and dreary to the eye,

When love is lost.

Love lends to life its grandeur and its might,

Love goes, and leaves behind it gloom and blight.

Like ghosts of time the pallid hours drag by,

And grief's one happy thought is that we die.

Ah! what can recompense us for its flight,

When love is lost.

IV

Life is a ponderous lesson book, and Fate

The teacher. When I came to love's fair leaf

My teacher turned the page and bade me wait.

"Learn first," she said, "love's grief";

And o'er and o'er through many a long to-morrow

She kept me conning that sad page of sorrow.

Cruel the task; and yet it was not vain.

Now the great book of life I know by heart.

In that one lesson of love's loss and pain

Fate doth the whole impart.

For, by the depths of woe, the mind can measure

The beauteous unscaled summits of love's pleasure.

Now, with the book of life upon her knee,

Fate sits! the unread page of love's delight

By her firm hand is half concealed from me,

And half revealed to sight.

Ah Fate! be kind! so well I learned love's sorrow,

Give me its full delight to learn to-morrow.

V

If I were a rain drop, and you were a leaf,

I would burst from the cloud above you

And lie on your breast in a rapture of rest,

And love you, love you, love you.

If I were a brown bee, and you were a rose,

I would fly to you, love, nor miss you;

I would sip and sip from your nectared lip,

And kiss you, kiss you, kiss you.

If I were a doe, dear, and you were a brook,

Ah, what would I do then, think you?

I would kneel by your bank, in the grasses dank,

And drink you, drink you, drink you.

VI

Time owes me such a heavy debt,

How can he ever make things right?

For suns that with no promise set

To help me greet the morning light,

For dreams that no fruition met,

For joys that passed from bud to blight,

Time owes me such a heavy debt;

How can he ever make things right?

For passions balked, with strain and fret

Of hopes delayed, or perished quite,

For kisses that I did not get

On many a love impelling night,

Time owes me such a heavy debt;

How can he ever make things right?

VII

As the king bird feeds on the heart of the bee,

So would I feed on the sweets of thee.

As the south wind kisses the leaf at will,

From the leaf of thy lips I would drink my fill.

As the sun pries into the heart of a rose,

I would pry in thy heart, and its thoughts disclose.

As a dewdrop mirrors the loving sky,

I would see myself in thy tear wet eye.

As the deep night shelters the day in its arms,

I would hide thee, dear, from the world's alarms.

VIII

Now do I know how Paradise doth seem,

Now do I know the deep red depths of hell.

Swift from those fair supernal heights I fell

To burning flames of hades, in a dream.

Methought my ladye rested by a stream

Which rippled through the verdure of a dell.

She lay like Eve; dear God, I dare not tell

Of her perfections; of the glow and gleam

Of tinted flesh, and undulating hair,

Of sudden thigh, and sweetly rounded breast.

Then, like a cloud, he came, from God knows where,

And on her eyes and mouth mad kisses pressed.

I fell, and fell, through leagues of scorching space,

And always saw his lips upon her face.

IX

Love is the source of all supreme delight,

Love is the bitter fountain of despair;

Who follows Love shall stand upon the height,

Yet through the darkest depths, Love, too, leads there.

Courage needs he who would with bold Love fare,

Let him set forth with all his strength bedight;

Yet in his heart this song to banish care—

"Love is the source of all supreme delight."

And he must sing this song both day and night,

Though he be led down shadowy pathways where

Black waters moan, through valleys struck with blight,

"Love is the bitter fountain of despair."

Let him be brave, and bravely let him dare

Whate'er betide, and feel no coward fright.

Who shares the worst, the best deserves to share;

Who follows Love shall stand upon the height.

Ah! sweet is peace to those who faced the fight,

And bright the crown those faithful ones shall wear,

Who whispered, when the shadows veiled their sight,

"Yet through the darkest depths, Love, too, leads there."

To hearts that best know Love, his dark is fair,

His sorrow gladness, and his wrong is right.

All joys lie waiting on his winding stair;

All ways, all paths of Love lead to the light.

Love is the source.

X

My ladye's eyes are wishing wells,

Wherein I gaze with silent yearning;

Deep in their depths my future dwells.

My ladye's eyes are wishing wells,

But not one sign my fate foretells,

While my poor heart with love is burning.

My ladye's eyes are wishing wells,

Wherein I gaze with silent yearning.

XI

Three things my ladye seemeth like to me—

She seems like moonlight on a waveless sea.

And like the delicate fragrance, which exhales,

When Day's warm garments brush the dewy vales.

And when my heart grows weary of earth's sound,

She seems like silence—restful and profound.

XII

The moon flower, grown from a slip so slender,

Has burst in a star bloom, full and white.

The air is filled with a perfume tender,

The breath that blows from that garden height.

Yet moments lag that should take their flight

On wings, like the wings of a homing dove,

And the world goes wrong where it should go right,

For this is a night that is lost to love.

Again, like a queen, who would rashly spend her

Dower of wealth in a single night,

The proud moon seems, on her track of splendor,

Enriching the world with her silver light.

She flings on the crest of each billow a bright

Pure gem, from the casket of jewels above.

But I sigh as I gaze on the glorious sight,

"This is a night that is lost to love."

Oh, I would that the moon might never wend her

Way through the skies in royal might,

Till the haughty heart of my lady surrender

And the faithful love of a life requite.

For the moon was made for a lover's delight;

And grayer than gloom must its luster prove

To the soul that sighs under sorrow's blight,

"This is a night that is lost to love."

L'Envoi.

Fate, have pity upon my plight,

And the heart of my lady to mercy move.

For the saddest words that youth can write

Are, "This is a night that is lost to love."

XIII

As the waves of the outgoing sea

Leave the rocks and the drift wood bare,

When your thoughts are for others than me,

My heart is the strand of despair—

Beloved,

Where bleak suns glare,

And joy, like a desolate mourner, gropes

In the wrecks of broken hopes.

As the incoming waves of the sea,

The rocks and the sandbar hide,

When your thoughts flow back to me,

My heart leaps up on the tide—

Beloved,

Where my glad hopes ride

With joy at the wheel, and the sun above

In a glorious sky of love.

XIV

There was a bard all in the olden time,

When bards were men to whom the world gave ear,

And song an art the great gods deemed sublime,

Who sought to make his willful lady hear

By weaving strange new melodies of rhyme,

Which voiced his love, his sorrow, and his fear.

Sweetheart, my soul is heavy now with fear,

Lest thou shalt frown upon me for all time.

Ah! would that I had skill to weave a rhyme

Worthy to win the favor of thine ear.

Tho' all the world were deaf, if thou didst hear

And smile, my song would seem to me sublime.

But ah! too vast, too awful and sublime,

Is my great passion, born of grief and fear,

To clothe in verse. Why, if the world could hear

And understand my love, then for all time,

So long as there was sound or listening ear,

All space would ring and echo with my rhyme.

Such passion seems belittled by a rhyme

It needs the voice of nature. The sublime,

Loud thunder crash, that hurts the startled ear,

And stirs the heart with awe, akin to fear,

The weird, wild winds of equinoctial time;

These voices tell my love, wouldst thou but hear.

And listening at the flood tides, thou might'st hear

The love I bear thee surging through the rhyme

Of breaking billows, many a moon full time.

Why, I have heard thee call the sea sublime,

When every wave but voiced the anguished fear

Of my man's heart to thy unconscious ear.

Vain, then, the hope that thou wilt lend thine ear

To any song of mine, or deign to hear

My lays of longing or my strains of fear.

Vain is the hope to weave for thee a rhyme,

Or sweet or sad, or subtle or sublime,

Which wins thy gracious favor for all time.

Oh, cruel time! my lady will not hear,

Though in her ear love sings a song sublime,

And my sad rhyme ends, like my love, in fear.

X

prologue

Bright like the comforting blaze on the hearth,

Sweet like the blooms on the young apple tree,

Fragrant with promise of fruit yet to be

Are the home-keeping maidens of earth.

Better and greater than talent is worth,

And where is the glory of brush or of pen

Like the glory of mothers and molders of men—

The home-keeping women of earth?

Crowned since the great solar system had birth,

They reign unsurpassed in their beautiful sphere.

They are queens who can look in God's face without fear—

The home-keeping women of earth.

A man whose mere name was submerged in the sea

Of letters which followed it, B. A., M. D.,

And Minerva knows what else, held forth at Bellevue

On what he believed some discovery new

In medical Science (though, mayhap, a truth

That was old in Confucius' earliest youth),

And a bevy of bright women students sat near,

Absorbing his wisdom with eye and with ear.

Close by, lay the corpse of a man, half in view.

Dear shades of our dead and gone grandmamas! you

Whose modesty hung out red flags on each cheek,

Danger signals—if some luckless boor chanced to speak

The words "leg" or "liver" before you, I think

Your gray ashes, even, would deepen to pink

Should your ghost happen into a clinic or college

Where your granddaughters congregate seeking for knowledge.

Forced to listen to what they are eager to hear,

No doubt you would fancy the world out of gear,

And deem modesty dead, with last century belles

Honored ghosts, you would err! for true modesty dwells

In the same breast with knowledge, and takes no offense.

Truth never harmed anything yet but pretense.

There are fashions in modesty; what in your time

Had been deemed little less than an absolute crime

In matters of dress, or behavior, to-day

Is the custom. And however daring you may

Deem our manners and modes, yet, were facts fully known,

Our morals compare very well with your own.

The women composing the class at Bellevue

Were young—under thirty; some pleasing to view,

Some plain. Roman features prevailed, with brown hair,

But one was so feminine, soft eyed and fair

That she seemed out of place in a clinic, as though

A rose in a vegetable garden should grow.

While her face was intelligent, none would avow

That cold intellect dwelt on that fair oval brow,

Or looked out of the depths of those golden gray eyes,

The color of smoke against clear, sunny skies.

'Twas a warm woman face, made for fireside nooks,

Not a face to be bent over medical books.

There was nothing aggressive in features or form;

She was meant for still harbors, and not for the storm

And the strife of rude waters. The swell of her breast

Suggested love's sweet downy cushion of rest

For the cheeks of fair children. Her plump little hands,

Seemed fashioned for sewing small gussets and bands

And fussing with laces and ribbons, instead

Of cutting cold flesh and dissecting the dead.

And yet, as a student she ranked with the first.

But conscience, in labor once chosen, not thirst

For such knowledge, had spurred her to action. This day

She seemed inattentive, her air was distrait,

As if thought had slipped free of the bridle and rein

And galloped away over memory's plain.

It was true; it was strange, too, but there in the class,

While the learned man was talking, her mind seemed to pass

Out, away from the clinic, away from the town,

To a New England midsummer garden close down

By the salt water's edge; and she felt the wind blowing

Among her loose locks as she leaned o'er her sewing,

While the voice of a man stirred her heart into song.

She was called from her dream by the clang of the gong

Which foretells an arrival at Bellevue. The class

Was dismissed for the day. In the hall, forced to pass

By the stretcher (low brougham of misery), she

Whom we know was Ruth Somerville, looked down to see

The white, haggard face of the man whom her mind

Had strayed off in a waking day vision to find

But a moment before.

The wild, passionate cry

Which arose in her heart, was held back, nor passed by

The white sentinels set on her lip. The serene,

Lofty look which deep feeling controlled gives the mien

Marked her air as she turned to the surgeon and said:

"This man lying here, either dying or dead,

Was a classmate, at Yale, of my brother's; my friend

Is his wife. Let me stay by his side to the end,

If the end has not come."

It was Roger Montrose,

Grown old with his sins and grown gaunt with his woes,

Lying low in his manhood before her.

His eyes

Opened slowly; a wondering look of surprise

Met the soft orbs above him. "Ruth—Ruth Somerville,"

He said feebly. "Tell Mabel"—then sighed, and was still.

But it was not the stillness of death. There was life

In that turbulent heart yet; that heart torn with strife,

Scarred with passion, and wracked by the pangs of remorse.

"Death's swift leaden messenger missed in its course

By the breadth of a hair," said the surgeon. "The ball

Lies in there by the shoulder. His chances are small

For a new start on earth. While a sober man might

Hope to conquer grim Death in this hand-to-hand fight,

Here old Alcohol stands as Death's second, fierce, cruel,

And stronger than Life's one aid, skill, in the duel.

You tell me the wife of this man is your friend?

He was shot by a woman, who then made an end

Of her own life. I hope it was not—" "Oh, no—no,

Not his wife," Ruth replied, "for he left her to go

With this other, his victim—poor creature—they say

She was good till she met him. Ah! what a black way

For love's rose scented path to lead down to, and end.

God pity her, pity her." "Her, not your friend?

Not his wife?"

There was gentle reproof in the tone

Of the staid old physician. Ruth's eyes met his own

In brave, silent warfare; the blue and the gray

Again faced each other in battle array.

     Ruth:

I pity the woman who suffered. His wife

Goes her way well contented. Love was in her life

But an incident; while to this other, dear God,

It was all; on what sharp, burning ploughshares she trod,

Down what chasms she leaped, how she tossed the whole world,

Like a dead rose, behind her, to lie and be whirled

In the maelstrom of love for one moment. Ah, brief

Is the rapture such souls find, and long is their grief,

Black their sin, blurred their record, and scarlet their shame.

And yet when I think of them, sorrow, not blame,

Stirs my being. Blind passion is only the weed

Of fair, beautiful love. Both are sprung from one seed;

One grows wild, one is trained and directed. Condemn

The hand that neglected—but ah! pity them.

     Surgeon:

You speak with much feeling. But now, if the friends

Of this man are to see him before his life ends,

I recommend action on your part. His stay

On this planet, I fear, will be finished to-day.

A man who neglects and abuses his wife,

Who gives her at best but the dregs of his life,

In the hey day of health, when he's drained his last cup

Has a fashion of wanting to settle things up.

Craves forgiveness, and hopes with a few final tears

To wash out the sins and the insults of years.

Call your friend; bid her hasten, lest lips that are dumb,

Having wasted life's feast, shall refuse her death's crumb.

     Ruth:

There are souls to whom crumbs are sufficient, at least

They seem not to value love's opulent feast.

They neglect, they ignore, they abuse, or destroy

What to some poor starved life had been earth's rarest joy.

'Tis a curious fact that love's banqueting table

Full often is spread for the guest the least able

To do the feast justice. The gods take delight

In offering crusts to the starved appetite

And rich fruits, to the sated or sickly.

The eyes

Of the surgeon were fixed on Ruth's face with a wise

Knowing look in their depths, and he said to himself,

"There's a mystery here which young Cupid, sly elf,

Could account for. I judge by her voice and her face

That the wife of this man holds no very warm place

In Miss Somerville's heart, though she names her as friend.

Ah, full many a drama has come to an end

'Neath the walls of Bellevue, and the curtain will fall

On one actor to-night; though the audience call,

He will make no response, once he passes from view,

For Death is the prompter who gives him the cue."

The wisest minds err. When a clergyman tries

To tell a man where he will go when he dies,

Or when a physician makes bold to aver

Just the length of a life here, both usually err.

So it is not surprising that Roger, at dawn,

Sat propped up by pillows, still haggard and wan,

But seemingly stronger, and eager to tell

His story to Ruth ere the death shadows fell.

"If I go before Mabel can reach me," he sighed,

"Tell her this: that my heart was ail hers when I died,

Was all hers while I lived. Ah! I see how you start,

But that other—God pity her—not with my heart,

But my sensual senses I loved her. The fire

Of her glance blinded men to all things save desire.

It called to the beast chained within us. Her lips

Held the nectar that makes a man mad when he sips.

Her touch was delirium. In the fierce joys

Of her kisses there lurked the fell curse which destroys

All such rapture—satiety. When passion dies,

And the mind finds no pleasure, the spirit no ties

To replace it, disgust digs its grave. Ay! disgust

Is ever the sexton who buries dead lust.

When two people wander from virtue's straight track,

One always grows weary and longs to go back.

Well, I wearied. God knows how I struggled to hide

The truth from the poor, erring soul at my side.

And God knows how I hated my life when I first

Found that passion's mad potion had palled on my thirst.

Once false to my virtues, now false to my sin,

I seemed less to myself than I ever had been.

We parted. This bullet hole here in my breast

Proceeds with the story and tells you the rest.

She smiled, I remember, in saying adieu:

Then two swift, sharp reports—and I woke in Bellevue

With one ball in my breast.

     Ruth:

And the other in hers.

No more with wild sorrow that sad bosom stirs.

She is dead, sir, the woman you led to her ruin.

     Roger:

The woman led me. Ah! not all the undoing

In these matters lies at man's door. In the mind

Of full many a so-called chaste woman we find

Unchaste longings. The world heaps on man its abuse

When he woos without wedding; yet women seduce

And betray us; they lure us and lead us to shame;

As they share in the sin, let them share in the blame.

     Ruth:

Hush! the woman is dead.

     Roger:

And I dying. But truth

Is not changed by the death of two people! Oh, Ruth,

Be just ere you judge me! the death of my child

Half unbalanced my reason; weak, wretched and wild

With drink and with sorrows, the devil's own chance

Flung me down by the side of a woman whose glance

Was an opiate, lulling the conscience. I fell,

With the woman who tempted me, down to dark hell.

In the honey of sin hides the sting of the bee.

The honey soon sated—the sting stayed with me.

Like a damned soul I looked from my Hades, above

To the world I had left, and I craved the pure love

That but late had seemed cold, unresponsive. Her eyes,

Mabel's eyes, shone in dreams from the far distant skies

Of the lost world of goodness and virtue. Like one

Who is burning with thirst 'neath a hot desert sun,

I longed for her kiss, cool, reluctant, but pure.

Ah! man's love for good women alone can endure,

For virtue is God, the Eternal. The rest

Is but chaos. The worst must give way to the best.

Tell Mabel—Ruth, Ruth, she is here, oh thank God.

She stood, like a violet sprung from the sod,

By his bedside; pale, beautiful, dewy with tears.

The spectre of death bridged the chasm of years:

He sighed on her bosom. "Forgive, oh forgive!"

She kissed his pale forehead and answered him: "Live,

Live, my husband! oh plead with the angels to stay

Until God, too, has pardoned your sins. Let us pray."

Ruth slipped from the room all unnoticed. She seemed

Like a sleeper who wakens and knows he has dreamed

And is dazed with reality. On, as if led

By some presence unseen, to the inn of the dead

She passed swiftly; the pale silent guest whom she sought

Lay alone on her narrow and unadorned cot.

No hand had placed blossoms about her; no tear

Of love or of sorrow had hallowed that bier.

The desperate smile life had left on her face

Death retained; but he touched, too, her brow with a grace

And a radiance, subtle, mysterious. Under

The half drooping lids lay a look of strange wonder,

As if on the sight of those sorrowing eyes

The unexplored country had dawned with surprise.

The pure, living woman leaned over the dead,

Lovely sinner, and kissed her. "God rest you," she said.

"Poor suffering soul, you were forged in that Source

Where the lightnings are fashioned. Love guided, your force

Would have been like a current of life giving joys,

And not like the death dealing bolt which destroys.

Oh, shame to the parents who dared give you birth,

To live and to love and to suffer on earth,

With the serious lessons of life unexplained,

And your passionate nature untaught and untrained.

You would not lie here in your youth and your beauty

If your mother had known what was motherhood's duty.

The age calls to woman, "Go, broaden your lives,"

While for lack of good mothers the Potter's Field thrives.

But you, poor unfortunate, you shall not lie

In that dust heap of death; while the summers roll by

You shall sleep where green hillsides are kissed by the wave,

And the soft hand of pity shall care for your grave.

XI

Ruth's Letter to Maurice, Six Months Later

.

The springtime is here in our old home again,

Which again you have left. Oh, most worthy of men,

Why grieve for unworthiness? Why waste your life

For a woman who never was meant for a wife?

Mabel Lee has no love in her nature. Your heart

Would have starved in her keeping. She plays her new part,

As the faithful, forgiving, sweet spouse, with content.

I think she is secretly glad Roger went

Astray for a season. She stands up still higher

On her pedestal, now, for Bay Bend to admire.

She is pleased with herself. As for Roger, he trots

Like a lamb in her wake, with the blemishing spots

Of his sins washed away by the Church. Oh I seem

To myself, in these days, like one waked from a dream

To blessed reality. Off in the Bay

I saw a fair snowy sailed ship yesterday.

The masts shone like gold, and the furrowed waves laughed,

To be beat into foam by the beautiful craft.

But close in the harbor I saw the ship lying;

What seemed like the wings of a sea gull when flying,

Were weather stained sheets; there were no masts of gold,

And the craft was uncleanly, unseaworthy, old.

Well, the man whom I loved, and loved vainly, and whom

I fancied had shadowed my whole life with gloom,

Has been shown to my sight like that ship in the Bay,

And all my illusions have vanished away.

The man is by nature weak, selfish, unstable.

I think if some woman more loving than Mabel,

More tender, more tactful, less painfully good,

Had directed his home-life, perchance Roger would

Have evolved his best self, that pure atom of God,

Which lies deep in each heart like a seed in the sod.

'Tis the world's over-virtuous women, ofttimes,

Who drive men of weak will into sexual crimes

I pity him. (God knows I pity, each, all

Of the poor striving souls who grope blindly and fall

By the wayside of life.) But the love which unbidden

Crept into my heart, and was guarded and hidden

For years, that has vanished. It passed like a breath,

In the gray Autumn morning when Roger faced death,

As he thought, and uncovered his heart to my sight.

Like a corpse, resurrected and brought to the light,

Which crumbles to ashes, the love of my youth

Crumbled off into nothingness. Ah, it is truth;

Love can die! You may hold it is not the true thing,

Not the genuine passion, which dies or takes wing;

But the soil of the heart, like the soil of the earth,

May, at varying times of the seasons, give birth

To bluebells, and roses, and bright goldenrod.

Each one is a gift from the garden of God,

Though it dies when its season is over. Why cling

To the withered dead stalk of the blossoms of spring

Through a lifetime, Maurice? It is stubbornness only,

Not constancy, which makes full many lives lonely.

They want their own way, and, like cross children, fling

Back the gifts which, in place of the lost flowers of spring,

Fate offers them. Life holds in store for you yet

Better things, dear Maurice, than a dead violet,

As it holds better things than dead daisies for me.

To Roger Montrose, let us leave Mabel Lee,

With our blessing. They seem to be happy; or she

Seems content with herself and her province; while he

Has the look of one who, overfed with emotion,

Tries a diet of spiritual health-food, devotion.

He is broken in strength, and his face has the hue

Of a man to whom passion has bidden adieu.

He has time now to worship his God and his wife.

She seems better pleased with the dregs of his life

Than she was with the bead of it.

Well, let them make

What they will of their future. Maurice, for my sake

And your own, put them out of your thoughts. All too brief

And too broad is this life to be ruined by grief

Over one human atom. Like mellowing rain,

Which enriches the soil of the soul and the brain,

Should the sorrow of youth be; and not like the breath

Of the cyclone, which carries destruction and death.

Come, Maurice, let philosophy lift you above

The gloom and despair of unfortunate love.

Sometimes, if we look a woe straight in the face,

It loses its terrors and seems commonplace;

While sorrow will follow and find if we roam.

Come, help me to turn the old house into home.

We have youth, health, and competence. Why should we go

Out into God's world with long faces of woe?

Let our pleasures have speech, let our sorrows be dumb,

Let us laugh at despair and contentment will come.

Let us teach earth's repiners to look through glad eyes,

For the world needs the happy far more than the wise.

I am one of the women whose talent and taste

Lie in home-making. All else I do seems mere waste

Of time and intention; but no woman can

Make a house seem a home without aid of a man.

He is sinew and bone, she is spirit and life.

Until the veiled future shall bring you a wife,

Me a mate (and both wait for us somewhere, dear brother),

Let us bury old corpses and live for each other.

You will write, and your great heart athrob through your pen

Shall strengthen earth's weak ones with courage again.

Where your epigrams fail, I will offer a pill,

And doctor their bodies with "new woman" skill.

(Once a wife, I will drop from my name the M. D.

I hold it the truth that no woman can be

An excellent wife and an excellent mother,

And leave enough purpose and time for another

Profession outside. And our sex was not made

To jostle with men in the great marts of trade.

The wage-earning women, who talk of their sphere,

Have thrown the domestic machine out of gear.

They point to their fast swelling ranks overjoyed,

Forgetting the army of men unemployed.

The banner of Feminine "Rights," when unfurled,

Means a flag of distress to the rest of the world.

And poor Cupid, depressed by such follies and crimes,

Sits weeping, alone, in the Land of Hard Times.

The world needs wise mothers, the world needs good wives,

The world needs good homes, and yet woman strives

To be everything else but domestic. God's plan

Was for woman to rule the whole world,

through a man

.

There is nothing a woman of sweetness and tact

Can not do without personal effort or act.

She needs but infuse lover, husband or son

With her own subtle spirit, and lo! it is done.

Though the man is unconscious, full oft, of the cause,

And fancies himself the sole maker of laws.

Well, let him. The cannon, no doubt, is the prouder

For not knowing its noise is produced by the powder.

Yet this is the law:

Who can love, can command.

)

But I wander too far from the subject in hand,

Which is, your home coming. Make haste, dear; I find

More need every day of your counseling mind.

I work well in harness, but poorly alone.

Until that bright day when Fate brings us our own,

Let us labor together. I see many ways,

Many tasks, for the use of our talents and days.

Your wisdom shall better the workingmen's lives,

While I will look after their daughters and wives,

And teach them to cook without waste; for, indeed,

It is knowledge like this which the poor people need,

Not the stuff taught in schools. You shall help them to think,

While I show them what they can eat and can drink

With least cost, and most pleasure and benefit. Please

Write me and say you will come, dear Maurice.

Home, sister, and duty are all waiting here;

Who keeps close to duty finds pleasure dwells near.

XII

Maurice's Letter to Ruth

:

No, no. I have gambled with destiny twice,

And have staked my whole hopes on a home; but the dice

Thrown by Fate made me loser. Henceforward, I know

My lot must be homeless. The gods will it so.

I fought, I rebelled; I was bitter. I strove

To outwit the great Cosmic Forces, above,

Or beyond, or about us, who guide and control

The course of all things from the moat to the soul.

The river may envy the peace of the pond,

But law drives it out to the ocean beyond.

If it roars down abysses, or laughs through the land,

It follows the way which the Forces have planned.

So man is directed. His only the choice

To help or to hinder—to weep or rejoice.

But vain is refusal—and vain discontent,

For at last he must walk in the way that was meant.

My way leads through shadow, alone to the end

I must work out my karma, and follow its trend.

I must fulfill the purpose, whatever it be,

And look not for peace till I merge in God's sea.

Though bankrupt in joy, still my life has its gain;

I have climbed the last round in the ladder of pain.

There is nothing to dread. I have drained sorrow's cup

And can laugh as I fling it at Fate bottom up.

I have missed what I sought; yet I missed not the whole.

The best part of love is in loving. My soul

Is enriched by its prodigal gifts. Still, to give

And to ask no return, is my lot while I live.

Such love may be blindness, but where are love's eyes?

Such love may be folly, love seldom is wise.

Such love may be madness, was love ever sane?

Such love must be sorrow, for all love is pain.

Love goes where it must go, and in its own season.

Love cannot be banished by will or by reason.

Love gave back your freedom, it keeps me its slave.

I shall walk in its fetters, unloved, to my grave.

So be it. What right has the ant, in the dust,

To cry that the world is all wrong, and unjust,

Because the swift foot of a messenger trod

Down the home, and the hopes, that were built in the sod?

What is man but an ant, in this universe scheme?

Though dear his ambition, and precious his dream,

God's messengers speed all unseen on their way,

And the plans of a lifetime go down in a day

No matter. The aim of the Infinite mind,

Which lies back of it all, must be great, must be kind.

Can the ant or the man, though ingenious and wise,

Swing the tides of the sea—set a star in the skies?

Can man fling a million of worlds into space,

To whirl on their orbits with system and grace?

Can he color a sunset, or create a seed,

Or fashion one leaf of the commonest weed?

Can man summon daylight, or bid the night fall?

Then how dare he question the Force which does all?

Where so much is flawless, where so much is grand,

All, all must be right, could our souls understand.

Ah, man, the poor egotist! Think with what pride

He boasts his small knowledge of star and of tide.

But when fortune fails him, or when a hope dies,

The Maker

of stars and of seas he denies!

I questioned, I doubted. But that is all past;

I have learned the true secret of living at last.

It is, to accept what Fate sends, and to know

That the one thing God wishes of man—is to grow.

Growth, growth out of self, back to him—the First Cause:

Therein lies the purpose, the law of all laws.

Tears, grief, disappointment, well, what are all these

To the Builder of stars and the Maker of seas?

Does the star long to shine, when He tells it to set,

As the heart would remember when told to forget?

Does the sea moan for flood tide, when bid to be low,

As a soul cries for pleasure when given life's woe?

In the Antarctic regions a volcano glows,

While low at its base lie the up-reaching snows.

With patient persistence they steadily climb,

And the flame will be quenched in the passage of time.

My heart is the crater, my will is the snow,

Which yet may extinguish its volcanic glow.

When self is once conquered, the end comes to pain,

And that is the goal which I seek to attain.

I seek it in work, heaven planned, heaven sent;

In the kingdom of toil waits the crown of content.

Work, work! ah, how high and divine was its birth,

When God, the first laborer, fashioned the earth.

The world cries for workers; not toilers for pelf,

But souls who have sought to eliminate self.

Can the lame lead the race? Can the blind guide the blind?

We must better ourselves ere we better our kind.

There are wrongs to be righted; and first of them all,

Is to lift up the leaners from Charity's thrall.

Sweet, wisdomless Charity, sowing the seed

Which it seeks to uproot, of dependence and need.

For vain is the effort to give man content

By clothing his body, by paying his rent.

The garment re-tatters, the rent day recurs;

Who seeks to serve God by such charity errs.

Give light to the spirit, give strength to the mind,

And the body soon cares for itself, you will find.

First, faith in God's wisdom, then purpose and will,

And, like mist before sunlight, shall vanish each ill.

To the far realm of Wisdom there lies a short way.

To find it we need but the password—Obey.

Obey like the acorn that falls to the sod,

To rise, through the heart of the oak tree, to God.

Though slow be the rising, and distant the goal,

Serenity waits at the end for each soul.

I seek it. Not backward, but onward I go,

And since sorrow means growth, I will welcome my woe.

In the ladder of lives we are given to climb,

Each life counts for only a second of time.

The one thing to do in the brief little space,

Is to make the world glad that we ran in the race.

No soul should be sad whom the Maker deemed worth

The great gift of song as its dower at birth.

While I pass on my way, an invisible throng

Breathes low in my ear the new note of a song.

So I am not alone; for by night and by day

These mystical messengers people my way.

They bid me to hearken, they bid me be dumb

And to wait for the true inspiration to come.

THE END