Sitting In The Car After Cancer Surgery
My Sinuses Hurt.
My Brain Feels Tuned.
My Eyes Feel Tired.
My Emotions Are All Used Up.
My Tears Are Used Up.
I feel relieved. I want to get under my covers with the pain killer and sleep. I want to rest this next week and dream until refreshment comes. Last week, I waited as if in a raquet ball court - nervous energy. Vitamin 8, basement and shaving dog. This week, I want to wait for the biopsy results in a different way....in bed, lost in sleep and story, in my studio. Quiet and still.
The dawn has not come yet - my chances for good news is 50%. When the coast is clear and the world is good...then I can finally take that sigh...for a while at least.