Ruby - Astari Boedikoentjara
So you want to get to know me,
but just to find any flaws to see,
before you judge as you please?
Tough luck.
I’ve read you first.
Advice?
More of them?
Truth or lies?
Should I give a damn?
I understand
How can you catch a break
at the never-ending hurdles before you?
The bumps and cracks are nothing new.
More endless tasks to finish too.
Sysyphus must’ve been a human pinball,
I sometimes fall asleep
and find myself there again
back to the same quiet streets
and my two best friends
I miss those peaceful streets
Like a vehicle with a quarter of petrol in your tank
or the last 50 in your bank account
Like a tired athlete after a marathon,
groaning at another round
Like an endless conversation
It’s true, I guess
Ignorance is bliss
Your life is perfect
How come they don’t get that?
Why is it always bad?
Every day is basically the same.
We’ve become hamsters in our own spinning wheels.
It’s the familiar, boring game.
We’re going round and round on our heels.
The world’s become a scarier place.
It's a huge thank you to all of you,
Dearest Elders In The Family,
Peaceful-Loving Cousins too
for having finally seen us through.
First of all,
The world outside?
It can be chaotic.
God Does What God Likes.
What we break, God May Fix
or Leave Shattered, just like that.
A house, a family
Material things
Everything’s lovely
All the joy they bring
Will they always represent ‘home’?
This ain’t no desperation
I’m just contemplating
weighing my options
seriously considering
Yes, we don’t get to choose
I am sick to death of you
turning her all black and blue
taking over her already tortured soul
making her feel less than whole
I’ve had it with you