Ruby - Astari Boedikoentjara
You’ll never know
but he misses the old days
when you seemed to love him so,
in your arms, he’d felt safe and protected.
You only see
I think my heart’s been beyond broken
by Israeli Zionists’ atrocities.
I want freedom in Palestine,
so there’ll be no more misery.
No highlights for 2023.
I’m not arrogant
I’ve been adjusted to being alone
solving problems on my own
afraid to be (too) dependent
the moment I start asking
for your assistance
There’s only one way
to restore your peace of mind completely
Yes, you’ve already let him go
He’s never going to run the same sick show
Start making him
All apologies
Set me free
from the same, old miseries
no point in getting angry
but tortured in ‘so-called’ stoicity
I had to leave you
behind me, before 2023
My messages have gone unreplied
You were probably busy
and I chose to be kind
by not accusing you of pure ignorance
Create your own stories
for the sake of your guts and glory
fiction or real
depending how you feel
Social media
You may associate white
with beauty or purity
All I see is what looks empty
like a page or a canvass
for a writer or a painter
You use your bitter past
to ensure their hopes won’t last.
“Be realistic,”
that’s what you always say
making sure your message sticks.
Are you afraid of my face?
I am human too,
just like you.
This face represents me.
This is part of my identity.
How to recognise me,
Want to know what safety is?
It’s not how I should be
locked indoors like some jewelry piece
I’m not and that’s a boring analogy
I’m human
I can never really get rid of you,
can I?
No matter what I do
or how I should often lie
while trying hard not to cry