Ruby - Astari Boedikoentjara
Will I see you
sometime in the near future?
You sound sure
You keep convincing me
your intention is true
I had to leave you
behind me, before 2023
My messages have gone unreplied
You were probably busy
and I chose to be kind
by not accusing you of pure ignorance
“How do I catch monsters?”
I’m probably one of the many girls
who asks such a question.
They’re welcomed to wonder:
“Why do you wish to catch any monsters?
The grip of reality
slowly taking over me
away from my real hobbies
all in the name of making more money
I know I’m busy
Who died and made you god?
You make me crack up
Such an attention-seeker,
still desperate to be heard
asking for worshippers
Every day is basically the same.
We’ve become hamsters in our own spinning wheels.
It’s the familiar, boring game.
We’re going round and round on our heels.
The world’s become a scarier place.
I miss talking to you
It’s plain simple and true
I understand, we’re both busy
Perhaps this is not the time, I see
No, I’m not going to fret
A familiar sign
You thought you’d seen the sun
under the gloomy night sky
that you’d break a smile
Yes, he was beautiful,
Don’t insult yourself
by comparing you with a cat
that cannot resist
the sight of a fresh fish
right in front of it.
You can never stop time
but there’s an illusion of a pause
Turn off the phone
Close all the windows
Lock all your doors
Lie down
All hopes are lost
The last bit of oxygen’s out
They say you’ll never return
This is officially your final mission
So, the vast ocean has claimed you
From promises made
to smiles faked
I know what’s broken
from your excuses spoken
I know I’m mostly silent
but I ain’t being golden
