Ruby - Astari Boedikoentjara
I've been transported back in time
something familiar
yet also bizarre
the same old Twilight Zone
with the same old Culture of Silence
Will I ever get to know
the meaning of that look?
I'm afraid to find out as I go
There might be no turning back,
once I'm hooked
It’s true, I guess
Ignorance is bliss
Your life is perfect
How come they don’t get that?
Why is it always bad?
Your ignorance is not my bliss
but what do you care, right?
Not so much you miss
yet alone I must fight
I’ve stopped expecting you
You need us and we need you
like humanity needs to stay true
Why do we need to be reminded
by another tragedy that leaves us shattered?
A tremor that shook you all
Dear Society,
I hate how you make girls like me
feel stupid for believing so easily
everytime some guy shows an interest in me
Get a grip
Like a vehicle with a quarter of petrol in your tank
or the last 50 in your bank account
Like a tired athlete after a marathon,
groaning at another round
Like an endless conversation
I found your old letter
while removing some clutters
I read it again
and felt a slight jab of pain
You said you were sorry
brick by brick
layers of cement so thick
a real concrete
typically grey, so bland
to ward off the creeps
There’s the child and the adult
a heated argument involved
You think the child’s always being told
but not all adults are the grown-ups
It’s funny when you see
“Oh, but I respect you.”
While at the same time, you turn us blue
keep us homebound,
while you’re free to roam around.
What humanity?
We’re treated more like properties
They said I should’ve stayed longer
Perhaps it’s true
You’ve made me feel better
I owe it all to you
It’s the place where I could be
