Ruby - Astari Boedikoentjara
Take a step back and analyse.
Listen to some sounding advice.
Do you like what you see?
Are you longing to be free?
Think three steps ahead.
There’s still that hailstorm in my heart
The ice is solid
a perfect, although temporary patch
to fill the holes in its walls
I’m feeling cold
The dawn isn’t close enough,
yet I am jolted awake
from a dream that felt
like a time machine,
throwing me back to the past, so mean.
Oh, I never thought
that pretty petite puppet
could stab me in the back
an innocent audience
fascinated by her one little show
Call me by my name
Know who I am
It’s my identity
if you wish to speak to me
It’s a simple request
Run, run away
You, with no shame
Never return, not a day
I’ll remember your name
with sickness in me
Don’ get me wrong
I let you do as you blab on
exposing more of you
You don’t know me,
but that’s okay
You will know that I love you
even when I don’t say it
not even out loud
or even when I’m still way too proud
That fact, I have to admit
I still own it
How do you know you’re not missed?
Try to walk away and disappear
Who’s going to reach out to you?
Seriously, who?
You’re probably offended
I’ve decided to keep my old vow
that I shall never love
anyone like I’ve loved you.
No, please don’t say ‘wow’.
I don’t mean it as a compliment.
There’s still a lot about me, oblivious to you.
It’s the environment
I’d rather not be in
full of such impossible demands
and scolding remarks
for my lack of perfection
Say what you like,
do what you will
Let your words be the strike,
if you're in for the kill
Say what you mean,
