Ruby - Astari Boedikoentjara
From promises made
to smiles faked
I know what’s broken
from your excuses spoken
I know I’m mostly silent
but I ain’t being golden
Are you coming home tonight?
I’m waiting for you
I’d rather stay up
because your phone cannot be reached through
Where are you now?
Hello, stranger
I love your smile
like you do my poetry
but why look so troubled?
I was just expressing my vile
I am sick to death of you
turning her all black and blue
taking over her already tortured soul
making her feel less than whole
I’ve had it with you
A strange dream about you
We were on an open field,
when I heard you say:
“Here’s where I buried
some older parts of me.”
Come...
Come back...
Come back to us...
Come back to use, please...
Every line’s a trigger
You can never stop time
but there’s an illusion of a pause
Turn off the phone
Close all the windows
Lock all your doors
Lie down
This ain’t no desperation
I’m just contemplating
weighing my options
seriously considering
Yes, we don’t get to choose
Once in a while,
It’s only a few steps away
just to get to you
yet it also feels like miles
perhaps even days
that I have to go through
I don’t expect you to see
all the good in me
all that I’d like to be
anything lovely.
I need this
I found your old letter
while removing some clutters
I read it again
and felt a slight jab of pain
You said you were sorry
Will I see you
sometime in the near future?
You sound sure
You keep convincing me
your intention is true
