Ruby - Astari Boedikoentjara
Are you ready
to be what you’ve always wanted
like dreams inside your head
instead of nightmares causing dread?
I won’t promise you
that it won’t rain all the time
but we know it’s true
‘though it takes a while.
It feels like forever
a pause
a question for a cause
a bouquet of flowers
a colour represents
a message that says:
“let’s just be friends”
Oh, yes
I mind my own business
I do hang out with the boys
It's all my personal choice
but I'm no prissy princess
You’ll probably see me
an offbeat character at this party
a plain, simple girl-next-door
wondering what she could possibly offer
What? Who??
It’s the environment
I’d rather not be in
full of such impossible demands
and scolding remarks
for my lack of perfection
Go ahead
Just pretend you’ve never done anything bad
My suffering is what you claim
as me, playing the victim
The longer this calamity lasts,
I've been transported back in time
something familiar
yet also bizarre
the same old Twilight Zone
with the same old Culture of Silence
I first knew you
before there was him
Then there were two,
until the truth got really grim
I had to take two flights
It’s that rare ability
to push aside your emotions
Lock them all within
so you’re left to feel nothing
Voices of the worried
Create your own stories
for the sake of your guts and glory
fiction or real
depending how you feel
Social media
There's no amnesty granted
unless well-paid
Reach deeply into your pockets
until perhaps,
their eyeballs jump out of their sockets
