Ruby - Astari Boedikoentjara
Will I ever get to know
the meaning of that look?
I'm afraid to find out as I go
There might be no turning back,
once I'm hooked
I know what you did
I know what you did to her
You’ve broken her to bits
but she’s a survivor
You took what she’ll never get back
INTRO:
Welcome to the class of life.
Experience is your teacher.
Here's your lesson:
You may associate white
with beauty or purity
All I see is what looks empty
like a page or a canvass
for a writer or a painter
I won’t promise you
that it won’t rain all the time
but we know it’s true
‘though it takes a while.
It feels like forever
No, my smile isn’t for you.
You only deserve a smirk,
knowing it’s me you always irk.
You’re that ignorant, aren’t you?
You think I’m being mean
Don’ get me wrong
I let you do as you blab on
exposing more of you
You don’t know me,
but that’s okay
So you want to get to know me,
but just to find any flaws to see,
before you judge as you please?
Tough luck.
I’ve read you first.
Ask me not
about the bastard
who’d made this heart
nothing but a toy
my emotions, his sickest joy
Let's be honest
You're aching for a paradise
not this wretched world
where we all stand on this dying earth
The dawn isn’t close enough,
yet I am jolted awake
from a dream that felt
like a time machine,
throwing me back to the past, so mean.
(Dark Thoughts of The Bullied)
It's more than a vacant space
or lack of expression on one's face
It doesn't contain nothing,