Ruby - Astari Boedikoentjara
Perhaps you secretly wish I’d talk to you
the way I used to
like I fear silently
whether you’ll really listen to me
or just give me some more scrutiny
A strange dream about you
We were on an open field,
when I heard you say:
“Here’s where I buried
some older parts of me.”
How do you know you’re not missed?
Try to walk away and disappear
Who’s going to reach out to you?
Seriously, who?
You’re probably offended
Stay awake
Tons of work that always wait
No time to waste
Not many choices anyway
Ask me not
How can you catch a break
at the never-ending hurdles before you?
The bumps and cracks are nothing new.
More endless tasks to finish too.
Sysyphus must’ve been a human pinball,
They say patience is a virtue
and fairy tales aren’t true.
There’s no such thing as ‘love at a first sight.
Such a childish mentality isn’t right.
I know we’ve just met
Oh, I never thought
that pretty petite puppet
could stab me in the back
an innocent audience
fascinated by her one little show
Mommy, I'm scared
We've talked about this before
briefly, but I was still being straight
to the point that worries you more
Mommy, I'm still scared
Sssh...
Hear the silence.
Listen.
You may not have before
Too busy talking
delivering demands
I know you didn’t mean to see me through
It’s something you can’t help
and what you wish you never had
“Have patience.”
That was what you said that night
Will I see you
sometime in the near future?
You sound sure
You keep convincing me
your intention is true
The world is growing older
I still keep coming back for more
every year, as a reminder
hopefully, to turn you better
How have you been?
