Ruby - Astari Boedikoentjara
I know you didn’t mean to see me through
It’s something you can’t help
and what you wish you never had
“Have patience.”
That was what you said that night
Will I see you
sometime in the near future?
You sound sure
You keep convincing me
your intention is true
The world is growing older
I still keep coming back for more
every year, as a reminder
hopefully, to turn you better
How have you been?
Hello, stranger
I love your smile
like you do my poetry
but why look so troubled?
I was just expressing my vile
I'm denying my natural rights to fall apart
This world always demands a fight
with all my might
I don't always know
the next levels I should go
Never judge anyome
‘though I couldn’t help
when you decided to ridicule me
for being surrounded by boys
I chose to call friends
Oh, Casanova-wannabe
Who are you, really?
So you still haven’t given up on me
How to make you see?
Stop acting like you’re oh-so-desirable
It’s true, I guess
Ignorance is bliss
Your life is perfect
How come they don’t get that?
Why is it always bad?
Hey.
It’s the new me.
This time, no mercy.
I’ve had enough, you see?
Brand new armour
I’ve been blinded by biased simplicity,
seeing things in black and white, so literally.
The shame’s still within me,
‘though I know I’m not the one and only.
Have your minds also been corrupted,
I’d like to be
right in-between
asleep and awake
Is it too hard to take?
It’s the only place
Welcome to reality
Again, this is how you're supposed to be
No more stupid sentimentality
It only makes you one weakling, cry-baby
They say speaking up is important
