Ruby - Astari Boedikoentjara
No more magic?
Why vacant as it is?
Who took all of it?
Nothing to pick.
Dementors have resided,
A strange dream about you
We were on an open field,
when I heard you say:
“Here’s where I buried
some older parts of me.”
Call me cruel
but I’ve been fooled
These scars don’t heal overnight
Don’t ask me to pretend I’m alright
I’m silently, patiently waiting
Last night you appeared
right there in my dream
as real as I refused to see
you smirked at me, it seemed
“I haven’t got you yet,”
Have I told you that comfort zone is temporary?
Go ahead, call me crazy.
Have I told you that a safe space is an illusion?
It’s our own creation.
It’s just like us.
It doesn’t really last.
Go ahead and ask me
to write you something happy
as I stare at a page so empty
I can write something trivial
mundane, daily activities
I’m not looking for romance
I don’t even want to dance
still unsure with you,
‘though you seem honest and true
I don’t know
I'm denying my natural rights to fall apart
This world always demands a fight
with all my might
I don't always know
the next levels I should go
If time were relative,
then I’d like a pause
for a sense of relief
without any cause.
Let me roam around,
“Oh, but I respect you.”
While at the same time, you turn us blue
keep us homebound,
while you’re free to roam around.
What humanity?
We’re treated more like properties
Let's be honest
You're aching for a paradise
not this wretched world
where we all stand on this dying earth
They say falling in love is like this:
You think of them and cannot breathe
A day without them, what you’d rather miss
Love and longing, what you continue to bleed
They say heartache means to suffocate
