Ruby - Astari Boedikoentjara
Let's be honest
You're aching for a paradise
not this wretched world
where we all stand on this dying earth
I’m not arrogant
I’ve been adjusted to being alone
solving problems on my own
afraid to be (too) dependent
the moment I start asking
for your assistance
I am sick to death of you
turning her all black and blue
taking over her already tortured soul
making her feel less than whole
I’ve had it with you
They said I should’ve stayed longer
Perhaps it’s true
You’ve made me feel better
I owe it all to you
It’s the place where I could be
How do we get to be this estranged?
We’re all the same
treating each other differently
instead of trying to understand
without too much judgment
I must do what’s right
kicking you out
out of my sight
You were never mine
I was stupid and blind
but now I’m fine
I can write
about all the things
I find alright
I’ll let you think
this is about you
Are we in the era of escalating vanity?
So many strike a pose
It’s where anything goes
Once or twice ain’t enough
There’s always that extra dose
