Ruby - Astari Boedikoentjara
Didn’t you hear me say ‘no’?
When you first asked me
to do what you wanted me to
and become whom you thought I should be,
I even declined politely
Be grateful that I’ve kept quiet
as you blab to every pair of ear
who probably refuse to hear
your sob stories
your endless miseries
I don’t expect you to see
all the good in me
all that I’d like to be
anything lovely.
I need this
The secondhand poem
you once wrote for me
now used to woo another lady
Boy, you’re so lazy!
If she knew the backstory,
she’d be displeased
They think her life is always easy
far away from poverty
Spend away and be free
Oh, they have no idea
It’s a hard worker’s earned paradise
Against my will
I caught your presence
Time stood still
breeding a new conscience
Oh, Casanova-wannabe
Who are you, really?
So you still haven’t given up on me
How to make you see?
Stop acting like you’re oh-so-desirable
It’s that rare ability
to push aside your emotions
Lock them all within
so you’re left to feel nothing
Voices of the worried
Make sure you have something
worth watching for
because you demand
your audience’s attention,
taking up their time
absorbing their energy
Go back to the ancient age
if you still see us such potential threats
It’s not that we don’t need people
to sometimes save us from trouble
We’re good as can be
Through my eyes I can see
you, overcome by agony
There's your wall of misery
such a painful sight as can be
but the other side of you
I heard your voice outside
the window that night
You were talking to her
The Ex-Guardian of The Isolated Castle
I heard my name mentioned...
