Ruby - Astari Boedikoentjara
Dear Society,
I hate how you make girls like me
feel stupid for believing so easily
everytime some guy shows an interest in me
Get a grip
“I heard rage in your sleep,”
The Mighty Queen said.
“My child, what has gone so deep,
stealing the peacefulness in your dreams?”
“I forgot,”
You travel wherever you like,
leaving your trails of mess behind
I bet you have more than a bite
enough to clear your mind
Someone’s rights you still hold
A familiar sign
You thought you’d seen the sun
under the gloomy night sky
that you’d break a smile
Yes, he was beautiful,
You said
all the things
you thought you’d meant
Perhaps there’s a guidebook
on how to woo
like a werewolf calling out to the full moon
I need to be brave
to show you these feelings I have
For too long I’ve been imprisoned
by my own creation of silence
I’ve been too scared
Advice?
More of them?
Truth or lies?
Should I give a damn?
I understand
We’re not in school anymore
but grown-ups for sure
although some are adults
only by the digits of their age
but with such questionable attitude
The secondhand poem
you once wrote for me
now used to woo another lady
Boy, you’re so lazy!
If she knew the backstory,
she’d be displeased
Another episode
an inner push to an automatic mode
a buzzing chainsaw in my ears
My vision wasn’t crystal-clear
It was the same old alien
I believe there’s a reason
your shattered heart’s been revealed
even when you refuse to mention
or worry you may never heal
I know I’m just a stranger
Are you coming home tonight?
I’m waiting for you
I’d rather stay up
because your phone cannot be reached through
Where are you now?
