Ruby - Astari Boedikoentjara
Sssh...
Hear the silence.
Listen.
You may not have before
Too busy talking
delivering demands
They say falling in love is like this:
You think of them and cannot breathe
A day without them, what you’d rather miss
Love and longing, what you continue to bleed
They say heartache means to suffocate
There’s the child and the adult
a heated argument involved
You think the child’s always being told
but not all adults are the grown-ups
It’s funny when you see
No, sir!
Where did you get the idea
that it was about comfort?
Where’s your empathy?
Your statement has caused a lot of hurt
Want to know what safety is?
It’s not how I should be
locked indoors like some jewelry piece
I’m not and that’s a boring analogy
I’m human
It’s the environment
I’d rather not be in
full of such impossible demands
and scolding remarks
for my lack of perfection
I can write
about all the things
I find alright
I’ll let you think
this is about you
I’ve been blinded by biased simplicity,
seeing things in black and white, so literally.
The shame’s still within me,
‘though I know I’m not the one and only.
Have your minds also been corrupted,
Hey.
It’s the new me.
This time, no mercy.
I’ve had enough, you see?
Brand new armour
I am way past that envy
or that so-called jealousy.
Just a silent observer
to the oblivious or ignorant
to the fact that we’re all different
and the universe always has a way
I met a monster
who said all the right words
sweet and convincing
making me believe
we had something
All hopes are lost
The last bit of oxygen’s out
They say you’ll never return
This is officially your final mission
So, the vast ocean has claimed you