Ruby - Astari Boedikoentjara
Perhaps you secretly wish I’d talk to you
the way I used to
like I fear silently
whether you’ll really listen to me
or just give me some more scrutiny
I'm denying my natural rights to fall apart
This world always demands a fight
with all my might
I don't always know
the next levels I should go
Say what you like,
do what you will
Let your words be the strike,
if you're in for the kill
Say what you mean,
I read your sweet words on the screen
enough what I’ve seen
I bet you wish you were there
right where she’s always been
She’s had her head in the clouds
Go ahead
Just pretend you’ve never done anything bad
My suffering is what you claim
as me, playing the victim
The longer this calamity lasts,
It turns out
a decade and more
are still not enough
to know you as a whole.
I can still see the beauty in your soul,
Ask me not
about the bastard
who’d made this heart
nothing but a toy
my emotions, his sickest joy
You said
all the things
you thought you’d meant
Perhaps there’s a guidebook
on how to woo
like a werewolf calling out to the full moon
She hates to love in silence
like doing the solo dance
It's just her and her own shadow
another lonely day and night to go
Oh, how to tell you so?
You don’t know me well enough
especially to live my life
to make such short-sighted assumptions.
That’s okay, though.
Everyone’s entitled to their own opinions,
no matter how flawed.
If age is just a number,
then why does time feel smaller?
Space is no longer
as wide as we once experienced.
Before the digits,
Through my eyes I can see
you, overcome by agony
There's your wall of misery
such a painful sight as can be
but the other side of you
