Ruby - Astari Boedikoentjara
The world outside?
It can be chaotic.
God Does What God Likes.
What we break, God May Fix
or Leave Shattered, just like that.
Stay awake
Tons of work that always wait
No time to waste
Not many choices anyway
Ask me not
Don’t insult yourself
by comparing you with a cat
that cannot resist
the sight of a fresh fish
right in front of it.
I know what you did
I know what you did to her
You’ve broken her to bits
but she’s a survivor
You took what she’ll never get back
He’s a fairy tale come true
a prince charming, only for you
The sunny days with him
have kept you from going grim
You believe he’s a soulmate
I must do what’s right
kicking you out
out of my sight
You were never mine
I was stupid and blind
but now I’m fine
He bares his straight, white teeth for a smile
as he greets me with his shy “Hello”,
while I politely nod as I go.
His dark complexion slightly glistens
under the Jakarta morning sun.
A house, a family
Material things
Everything’s lovely
All the joy they bring
Will they always represent ‘home’?
Like a vehicle with a quarter of petrol in your tank
or the last 50 in your bank account
Like a tired athlete after a marathon,
groaning at another round
Like an endless conversation
Battle of the sexes:
That woman scares you.
She has more opinions than you do.
I’ve learned a lot
just from your betrayal.
No wonder trust is expensive.
No point in calling me paranoid.
I’ve added more bricks to my wall,
I think I’ve run out of sedatives
just to numb the pain within.
I know, they can be addictive,
but I can’t deal with my feelings.
These days, they can be overwhelming.
