Ruby - Astari Boedikoentjara
Stay awake
Tons of work that always wait
No time to waste
Not many choices anyway
Ask me not
I’m not arrogant
I’ve been adjusted to being alone
solving problems on my own
afraid to be (too) dependent
the moment I start asking
for your assistance
There’s still that hailstorm in my heart
The ice is solid
a perfect, although temporary patch
to fill the holes in its walls
I’m feeling cold
A house, a family
Material things
Everything’s lovely
All the joy they bring
Will they always represent ‘home’?
Let's be honest
You're aching for a paradise
not this wretched world
where we all stand on this dying earth
I first knew you
before there was him
Then there were two,
until the truth got really grim
I had to take two flights
No, sir!
Where did you get the idea
that it was about comfort?
Where’s your empathy?
Your statement has caused a lot of hurt
This ain’t no desperation
I’m just contemplating
weighing my options
seriously considering
Yes, we don’t get to choose
I've been transported back in time
something familiar
yet also bizarre
the same old Twilight Zone
with the same old Culture of Silence
She's been dismissed
belittled
considered a freak and overly sensitive
'though she believes
something's got to give
A night when we cross paths
a blast from the past
the way you look at me
full of familiarity
I know you’re still curious
You say it's just a talk,
like normal people making a conversation
It's part of being social,
despite the annual scrutiny and judgment
"Hello, there
