Ruby - Astari Boedikoentjara
The grip of reality
slowly taking over me
away from my real hobbies
all in the name of making more money
I know I’m busy
I need to be brave
to show you these feelings I have
For too long I’ve been imprisoned
by my own creation of silence
I’ve been too scared
This ain’t no desperation
I’m just contemplating
weighing my options
seriously considering
Yes, we don’t get to choose
Are we in the era of escalating vanity?
So many strike a pose
It’s where anything goes
Once or twice ain’t enough
There’s always that extra dose
Last night you appeared
right there in my dream
as real as I refused to see
you smirked at me, it seemed
“I haven’t got you yet,”
I am way past that envy
or that so-called jealousy.
Just a silent observer
to the oblivious or ignorant
to the fact that we’re all different
and the universe always has a way
Oh, I never thought
that pretty petite puppet
could stab me in the back
an innocent audience
fascinated by her one little show
I had the strangest, most vivid dream.
I heard your voice, faintly somewhere in the distance,
yet my phone was still off and charging.
Was it my imagination?
Was my mind playing tricks on me again?
It turns out
a decade and more
are still not enough
to know you as a whole.
I can still see the beauty in your soul,
Let's be honest
You're aching for a paradise
not this wretched world
where we all stand on this dying earth
Didn’t you hear me say ‘no’?
When you first asked me
to do what you wanted me to
and become whom you thought I should be,
I even declined politely
Enjoy these moments
of zero torments
no demands
except work to be done
Pseudo-romance
