Ruby - Astari Boedikoentjara
I met a monster
who said all the right words
sweet and convincing
making me believe
we had something
How do you know you’re not missed?
Try to walk away and disappear
Who’s going to reach out to you?
Seriously, who?
You’re probably offended
I’ve decided to keep my old vow
that I shall never love
anyone like I’ve loved you.
No, please don’t say ‘wow’.
I don’t mean it as a compliment.
There’s still a lot about me, oblivious to you.
Welcome to the country
of mixed messages
As all you can see,
we've been this way for ages
Nothing's really free
Put your tongues in cages
Break his spells
You might as well
Never say his name
End his game
We know what he is
Your ignorance is not my bliss
but what do you care, right?
Not so much you miss
yet alone I must fight
I’ve stopped expecting you
You travel wherever you like,
leaving your trails of mess behind
I bet you have more than a bite
enough to clear your mind
Someone’s rights you still hold
There’s still that hailstorm in my heart
The ice is solid
a perfect, although temporary patch
to fill the holes in its walls
I’m feeling cold
No, she’s not just asleep.
She’s not even fainted.
Can’t you tell that she’s already dead?
It takes more than countless tries to shake her awake..
You can’t even make her snap out of it.
How can you catch a break
at the never-ending hurdles before you?
The bumps and cracks are nothing new.
More endless tasks to finish too.
Sysyphus must’ve been a human pinball,
There’s a thin, fine line
between being lazy
and experiencing lethargy
I feel I’ve been half-awake
Perhaps it’s too much coffee
The world is growing older
I still keep coming back for more
every year, as a reminder
hopefully, to turn you better
How have you been?