Ruby - Astari Boedikoentjara
The dawn isn’t close enough,
yet I am jolted awake
from a dream that felt
like a time machine,
throwing me back to the past, so mean.
How do we get to be this estranged?
We’re all the same
treating each other differently
instead of trying to understand
without too much judgment
“How do I catch a monster?”
I’m probably one of the few girls
who asks such a question.
I’ll definitely startle
those who look at me and wonder:
The power abuse:
“People should be in order.”
Oh, yeah – have you been their best example(s)?
It’s your stupid, double standard
that makes it really, really hard
The grip of reality
slowly taking over me
away from my real hobbies
all in the name of making more money
I know I’m busy
Make sure you have something
worth watching for
because you demand
your audience’s attention,
taking up their time
absorbing their energy
You keep forcing that old, rotten joke
about how we keep quiet
yet demand that we be understood
Ha...ha...ha...!
What a dork
“Patience is a virtue.”
Yeah, right.
At least according to you.
“There’s no point in this fight.”
Nothing wrong with patience.
It’s not that you still mean to me
This is for a precaution only
to all the ladies
whom you haven’t fooled to please
you and only you
in the name of your ‘needs’
This ain’t no desperation
I’m just contemplating
weighing my options
seriously considering
Yes, we don’t get to choose
You travel wherever you like,
leaving your trails of mess behind
I bet you have more than a bite
enough to clear your mind
Someone’s rights you still hold
You demand
to be the centre of your lover’s attention
as if she’s not allowed a life of her own
It’s the double standard
of the one feeling more entitled
