Ruby - Astari Boedikoentjara
I can never really get rid of you,
can I?
No matter what I do
or how I should often lie
while trying hard not to cry
Your ignorance is not my bliss
but what do you care, right?
Not so much you miss
yet alone I must fight
I’ve stopped expecting you
From promises made
to smiles faked
I know what’s broken
from your excuses spoken
I know I’m mostly silent
but I ain’t being golden
You keep forcing that old, rotten joke
about how we keep quiet
yet demand that we be understood
Ha...ha...ha...!
What a dork
I don’t expect you to see
all the good in me
all that I’d like to be
anything lovely.
I need this
Are we in the era of escalating vanity?
So many strike a pose
It’s where anything goes
Once or twice ain’t enough
There’s always that extra dose
Welcome to reality
Again, this is how you're supposed to be
No more stupid sentimentality
It only makes you one weakling, cry-baby
They say speaking up is important
Welcome to the country
of mixed messages
As all you can see,
we've been this way for ages
Nothing's really free
Put your tongues in cages
I know what you did
I know what you did to her
You’ve broken her to bits
but she’s a survivor
You took what she’ll never get back
You will know that I love you
even when I don’t say it
not even out loud
or even when I’m still way too proud
That fact, I have to admit
I still own it
Hey.
It’s the new me.
This time, no mercy.
I’ve had enough, you see?
Brand new armour
I know you didn’t mean to see me through
It’s something you can’t help
and what you wish you never had
“Have patience.”
That was what you said that night
