Ruby - Astari Boedikoentjara
Let's be honest
You're aching for a paradise
not this wretched world
where we all stand on this dying earth
Love is weird
Sometimes it ignites my fear
Maybe it’s often mistaken
confused with a sad obsession
You think he’s the one
I know you think you can
stop me where I stand
send me back home
lock me up all alone
in your socially-constructed prison
No, sir!
Where did you get the idea
that it was about comfort?
Where’s your empathy?
Your statement has caused a lot of hurt
Another year gone by
left without questions why
The same old rituals
the familiar matters
The same old, mundane conversation
Half the sound is faintly barricaded
as I turn to the left
The other half is still safe
as I turn to the right
I fear of slowly losing the ability
Who died and made you god?
You make me crack up
Such an attention-seeker,
still desperate to be heard
asking for worshippers
Run, run away
You, with no shame
Never return, not a day
I’ll remember your name
with sickness in me
Make sure you have something
worth watching for
because you demand
your audience’s attention,
taking up their time
absorbing their energy
I first knew you
before there was him
Then there were two,
until the truth got really grim
I had to take two flights
Sssh...
Hear the silence.
Listen.
You may not have before
Too busy talking
delivering demands
They all say the same cliché:
“It’s better to have loved than none at all.”
Our story had been short and not worth it,
yet I’ve been cursed with this ability;
this giant elephant memory.
