Ruby - Astari Boedikoentjara
Enjoy these moments
of zero torments
no demands
except work to be done
Pseudo-romance
Who died and made you god?
You make me crack up
Such an attention-seeker,
still desperate to be heard
asking for worshippers
I must do what’s right
kicking you out
out of my sight
You were never mine
I was stupid and blind
but now I’m fine
I found your old letter
while removing some clutters
I read it again
and felt a slight jab of pain
You said you were sorry
Someday,
when I’m back on my feet again
I’ll remember all you said
and how much you’d been a pain
I’ll remember what you put me through
Oh, how we long for you to be
returning home, still healthy
after having sailed away
leaving us waiting by the bay.
The vast ocean hasn’t shown
Say what you like,
do what you will
Let your words be the strike,
if you're in for the kill
Say what you mean,
I can write
about all the things
I find alright
I’ll let you think
this is about you
I'm denying my natural rights to fall apart
This world always demands a fight
with all my might
I don't always know
the next levels I should go
I know you think you can
stop me where I stand
send me back home
lock me up all alone
in your socially-constructed prison
That is one question
you may never have the guts
to say out loud
here, right to my face.
You can’t fool me with your expressions.
I’d like to call your bluff
after you’ve implied I wasn’t good enough
even after all I’ve done
Everybody’s replacable
at some point, inevitable
