Ruby - Astari Boedikoentjara
Who died and made you god?
You make me crack up
Such an attention-seeker,
still desperate to be heard
asking for worshippers
I'm denying my natural rights to fall apart
This world always demands a fight
with all my might
I don't always know
the next levels I should go
I found your old letter
while removing some clutters
I read it again
and felt a slight jab of pain
You said you were sorry
I first knew you
before there was him
Then there were two,
until the truth got really grim
I had to take two flights
There’s still that hailstorm in my heart
The ice is solid
a perfect, although temporary patch
to fill the holes in its walls
I’m feeling cold
I’d like to call your bluff
after you’ve implied I wasn’t good enough
even after all I’ve done
Everybody’s replacable
at some point, inevitable
Go ahead and ask me
to write you something happy
as I stare at a page so empty
I can write something trivial
mundane, daily activities
Want to know what safety is?
It’s not how I should be
locked indoors like some jewelry piece
I’m not and that’s a boring analogy
I’m human
I read your sweet words on the screen
enough what I’ve seen
I bet you wish you were there
right where she’s always been
She’s had her head in the clouds
Are we in the era of escalating vanity?
So many strike a pose
It’s where anything goes
Once or twice ain’t enough
There’s always that extra dose
Hey.
It’s the new me.
This time, no mercy.
I’ve had enough, you see?
Brand new armour
Dear Society,
I hate how you make girls like me
feel stupid for believing so easily
everytime some guy shows an interest in me
Get a grip
