Ruby - Astari Boedikoentjara
You’ll never know
but he misses the old days
when you seemed to love him so,
in your arms, he’d felt safe and protected.
You only see
I had the strangest, most vivid dream.
I heard your voice, faintly somewhere in the distance,
yet my phone was still off and charging.
Was it my imagination?
Was my mind playing tricks on me again?
Have I put myself on exile for too long,
that solitude no longer feels wrong?
Just hollow,
a vacant space without a vibrant soul.
I’m afraid to forget
Go ahead and ask me
to write you something happy
as I stare at a page so empty
I can write something trivial
mundane, daily activities
A strange dream about you
We were on an open field,
when I heard you say:
“Here’s where I buried
some older parts of me.”
I can never really get rid of you,
can I?
No matter what I do
or how I should often lie
while trying hard not to cry
Mommy, I'm scared
We've talked about this before
briefly, but I was still being straight
to the point that worries you more
Mommy, I'm still scared
Will I see you
sometime in the near future?
You sound sure
You keep convincing me
your intention is true
She hates to love in silence
like doing the solo dance
It's just her and her own shadow
another lonely day and night to go
Oh, how to tell you so?
From promises made
to smiles faked
I know what’s broken
from your excuses spoken
I know I’m mostly silent
but I ain’t being golden
A night when we cross paths
a blast from the past
the way you look at me
full of familiarity
I know you’re still curious
Who died and made you god?
You make me crack up
Such an attention-seeker,
still desperate to be heard
asking for worshippers