Ruby - Astari Boedikoentjara
Mommy, I'm scared
We've talked about this before
briefly, but I was still being straight
to the point that worries you more
Mommy, I'm still scared
Being the first in line
doesn’t mean it’s always fine
You’re not always the priority
left to just wait and see
I’m not bitter
Fiction sells better these days
It keeps you guessing anyway
It depends on how well we craft
and if you happen to be pretty daft
For us, it's entertainment
You will know that I love you
even when I don’t say it
not even out loud
or even when I’m still way too proud
That fact, I have to admit
I still own it
Once in a while,
It’s only a few steps away
just to get to you
yet it also feels like miles
perhaps even days
that I have to go through
Go ahead
Just pretend you’ve never done anything bad
My suffering is what you claim
as me, playing the victim
The longer this calamity lasts,
A house, a family
Material things
Everything’s lovely
All the joy they bring
Will they always represent ‘home’?
Don’t mind me
I’m just being a little girl
This song is sappy
It couldn’t be worse
It’s him
I miss talking to you
It’s plain simple and true
I understand, we’re both busy
Perhaps this is not the time, I see
No, I’m not going to fret
The generation gap:
“They’re just little kids,
so young and still stupid.
“How do I catch a monster?”
I’m probably one of the few girls
who asks such a question.
I’ll definitely startle
those who look at me and wonder:
It's a huge thank you to all of you,
Dearest Elders In The Family,
Peaceful-Loving Cousins too
for having finally seen us through.
First of all,