Ruby - Astari Boedikoentjara
Bright lights, late at night
from the city streets so quiet
He woke up in a daze
with blood on his face
his memories erased.
A mismatched emotion
A complete opposite to the sun
Free, off the hook for a while
From work that has tied you down
What’s with the blues?
I think I’ve run out of sedatives
just to numb the pain within.
I know, they can be addictive,
but I can’t deal with my feelings.
These days, they can be overwhelming.
Are you ready
to be what you’ve always wanted
like dreams inside your head
instead of nightmares causing dread?
I’ve decided to keep my old vow
that I shall never love
anyone like I’ve loved you.
No, please don’t say ‘wow’.
I don’t mean it as a compliment.
There’s still a lot about me, oblivious to you.
The word is out
Now they know what you’re all about
No more doubts
It’s just you and your big mouth
You’re freaking out
I can write
about all the things
I find alright
I’ll let you think
this is about you
You complain about my hair
You make me want to swear
or the chubbiness in my cheeks
which somehow gives you the creeps
Then you go on with my nose
Enjoy these moments
of zero torments
no demands
except work to be done
Pseudo-romance
Someday,
when I’m back on my feet again
I’ll remember all you said
and how much you’d been a pain
I’ll remember what you put me through
Information jumbled-up
requiring double, triple-checks
even as all floods
right into your brain and heart
The clock is ticking
Run, run away
You, with no shame
Never return, not a day
I’ll remember your name
with sickness in me