Ruby - Astari Boedikoentjara
Go ahead and ask me
to write you something happy
as I stare at a page so empty
I can write something trivial
mundane, daily activities
Break his spells
You might as well
Never say his name
End his game
We know what he is
I won’t promise you
that it won’t rain all the time
but we know it’s true
‘though it takes a while.
It feels like forever
Once in a while,
It’s only a few steps away
just to get to you
yet it also feels like miles
perhaps even days
that I have to go through
That is one question
you may never have the guts
to say out loud
here, right to my face.
You can’t fool me with your expressions.
When you're gone
I wish for another day with you
Impossible but it's true
No one is ever ready for such news
You use your bitter past
to ensure their hopes won’t last.
“Be realistic,”
that’s what you always say
making sure your message sticks.
You’ll probably see me
an offbeat character at this party
a plain, simple girl-next-door
wondering what she could possibly offer
What? Who??
I've been transported back in time
something familiar
yet also bizarre
the same old Twilight Zone
with the same old Culture of Silence
a pause
a question for a cause
a bouquet of flowers
a colour represents
a message that says:
“let’s just be friends”
Welcome to reality
Again, this is how you're supposed to be
No more stupid sentimentality
It only makes you one weakling, cry-baby
They say speaking up is important
I don’t expect you to see
all the good in me
all that I’d like to be
anything lovely.
I need this
