Ruby - Astari Boedikoentjara
From promises made
to smiles faked
I know what’s broken
from your excuses spoken
I know I’m mostly silent
but I ain’t being golden
The secondhand poem
you once wrote for me
now used to woo another lady
Boy, you’re so lazy!
If she knew the backstory,
she’d be displeased
Want to know what safety is?
It’s not how I should be
locked indoors like some jewelry piece
I’m not and that’s a boring analogy
I’m human
The power abuse:
“People should be in order.”
Oh, yeah – have you been their best example(s)?
It’s your stupid, double standard
that makes it really, really hard
Sometimes your blood runs cold
at the sight before you
You may be bold
spitting out what’s true
Pent-up anger inside
Dear Society,
I hate how you make girls like me
feel stupid for believing so easily
everytime some guy shows an interest in me
Get a grip
Are you ready
to be what you’ve always wanted
like dreams inside your head
instead of nightmares causing dread?
This ain’t no desperation
I’m just contemplating
weighing my options
seriously considering
Yes, we don’t get to choose
The grip of reality
slowly taking over me
away from my real hobbies
all in the name of making more money
I know I’m busy
Enjoy these moments
of zero torments
no demands
except work to be done
Pseudo-romance
Call me cruel
but I’ve been fooled
These scars don’t heal overnight
Don’t ask me to pretend I’m alright
I’m silently, patiently waiting
Don’t mind me
I’m just being a little girl
This song is sappy
It couldn’t be worse
It’s him
