Should have been

Please don’t leave me here with my thoughts,they screams at me about my life.

They cut like a razor blade they cut like a knife.

Does it Matter if I bleed or if I feel?

Does it really matter if I’m real ?

Sinking deeper as I try to swim 🏊‍♂️.

Deaths looking good now but life looks so much better but life’s just isn’t the same now it’s starting to look too dark too grim.

Wave after wave I can’t breathe this air around me in.

Falling further from the truth cause theres lies I still hold in.

Maybe this is all in my head maybe I just need some good medicine.

I’ve found my good medicine here’s cheers 🍻 too some whiskey 🥃 or some wine 🍷 hell even beer 🍺 yeah that’ll do just fine,I just need some good medicine.

Another bottle down.

Shit faced and numb,Me and my Crown 👑 are gonna paint this town.

All drunk 😵 now room starting to spin.

This is fun for me at least I don’t feel anything within.

Alcohol my dear friend you did it again you numbed the pain and your still here when you all “should have been”.🙃